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Am ie\u0219it din apartament f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 fac zgomot. Mama dormea \u00een continuare \u00een fotoliul ei preferat, cu o p\u0103tur\u0103 sub\u021bire peste genunchi. Pentru o clip\u0103 m-am oprit \u00een prag \u0219i am privit-o. P\u0103rea at\u00e2t de fragil\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t am sim\u021bit un impuls puternic s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc, s\u0103 o trezesc \u0219i s\u0103-i cer s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Dar \u0219tiam c\u0103 n-ar fi f\u0103cut-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu atunci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu dup\u0103 at\u00e2\u021bia ani \u00een care reu\u0219ise s\u0103 m\u0103 conving\u0103 c\u0103 anumite amintiri ale mele nu erau adev\u0103rate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am l\u0103sat un bilet pe masa din buc\u0103t\u0103rie, spun\u00e2ndu-i c\u0103 plecasem s\u0103 rezolv ceva \u0219i c\u0103 m\u0103 voi \u00eentoarce cur\u00e2nd. Apoi am urcat \u00een ma\u0219in\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Nu mai fusesem \u00een satul acela de aproape cincizeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Se numea Valea Merilor \u0219i se afla la pu\u021bin peste o or\u0103 de ora\u0219ul \u00een care locuiam. C\u00e2nd eram mic\u0103, mama m\u0103 dusese uneori pe acolo, dar niciodat\u0103 nu-mi explicase de ce p\u0103rea at\u00e2t de nelini\u0219tit\u0103 c\u00e2nd treceam pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 anumite case.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi aminteam un drum pietruit, o f\u00e2nt\u00e2n\u0103 veche \u0219i o poart\u0103 ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mai ales poarta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe ea era pictat un fluture alb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd aveam \u0219ase sau \u0219apte ani, o \u00eentrebasem pe mama cine desenase fluturele. \u00cemi r\u0103spunsese c\u0103 probabil \u00eel visasem, pentru c\u0103 nu cuno\u0219tea nicio asemenea cas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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O crezusem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La urma urmei, era mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
De ce m-ar fi min\u021bit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acum, conduc\u00e2nd spre Valea Merilor, \u00eentrebarea aceea \u00eemi r\u0103suna \u00een minte cu o insisten\u021b\u0103 dureroas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Satul se schimbase enorm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Drumul era asfaltat, f\u00e2nt\u00e2na disp\u0103ruse, iar \u00een locul livezii de la intrare se construiser\u0103 c\u00e2teva case moderne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am trecut \u00eencet pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 biseric\u0103 \u0219i am cotit pe o strad\u0103 \u00eengust\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acolo am v\u0103zut-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vopseaua era scorojit\u0103, iar sc\u00e2ndurile se \u00eenclinaser\u0103 pu\u021bin. Dar fluturele alb era \u00eenc\u0103 acolo, aproape \u0219ters de ploi \u0219i de soare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am tras pe dreapta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u00e2teva secunde n-am putut s\u0103 cobor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aveam senza\u021bia c\u0103 privesc printr-o fereastr\u0103 spre propria copil\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am amintit mirosul de mere coapte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O voce de femeie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un c\u00e2ntec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u0218i o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 \u00een care pl\u00e2nsesem at\u00e2t de tare, \u00eenc\u00e2t m\u0103 duruse g\u00e2tul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am cobor\u00e2t \u0219i m-am apropiat de poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Curtea era n\u0103p\u0103dit\u0103 de iarb\u0103, iar casa de c\u0103r\u0103mid\u0103 p\u0103rea nelocuit\u0103. Una dintre ferestre avea obloanele \u00eenchise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u0103uta\u021bi pe cineva?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am \u00eentors speriat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La gardul vecin st\u0103tea un b\u0103rbat \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103, cu o \u0219apc\u0103 cenu\u0219ie \u0219i o saco\u0219\u0103 de cump\u0103r\u0103turi \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Bun\u0103 ziua. \u0218ti\u021bi cine locuie\u0219te aici?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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B\u0103rbatul a privit casa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Acum nu mai locuie\u0219te nimeni. Doamna Elisa a fost dus\u0103 la un centru de \u00eengrijire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi \u00eenghea\u021b\u0103 s\u00e2ngele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Numele de pe valiz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 O cunoa\u0219te\u021bi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sigur c\u0103 da. O cunosc de c\u00e2nd eram tineri. S\u0103raca femeie\u2026 A avut o via\u021b\u0103 grea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am f\u0103cut un pas spre el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu sunt Laura. Fiica Elenei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul m-a privit atent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Saco\u0219a i-a alunecat pu\u021bin din m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fa\u021ba i s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dumnezeule\u2026 Tu e\u0219ti feti\u021ba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu am \u00een\u021beles imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce feti\u021b\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul a privit spre casa de c\u0103r\u0103mid\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi din nou spre mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Feti\u021ba Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 picioarele nu m\u0103 mai ascult\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Poftim?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenghi\u021bit \u00een sec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103 ar fi mai bine s\u0103 vorbe\u0219ti cu Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elena este mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu ce \u021bi s-a spus, draga mea. Dar nu este chiar at\u00e2t de simplu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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M\u0103 numesc Laura, am cincizeci \u0219i trei de ani \u0219i, p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een ziua aceea, nu avusesem niciodat\u0103 vreun motiv serios s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eendoiesc de propria identitate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aveam un certificat de na\u0219tere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fotografii de familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Amintiri de la \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O mam\u0103 care m\u0103 crescuse cu o r\u0103bdare extraordinar\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i un tat\u0103 care murise c\u00e2nd aveam dou\u0103zeci \u0219i \u0219ase de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Acum, un necunoscut \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 femeia care m\u0103 crescuse nu era neap\u0103rat femeia care m\u0103 n\u0103scuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 V\u0103 rog s\u0103-mi explica\u021bi, am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul \u0219i-a dat jos \u0219apca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 M\u0103 numesc Pavel. Am locuit aici toat\u0103 via\u021ba. Pe Elisa am cunoscut-o de mic\u0103. Era sora mai mic\u0103 a Elenei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mama nu are nicio sor\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pavel m-a privit cu triste\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A avut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am amintit toate reuniunile de familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toate fotografiile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toate pove\u0219tile mamei despre copil\u0103ria ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi vorbise despre p\u0103rin\u021bii ei, despre bunici, despre r\u0103zboi \u0219i despre anii grei de dup\u0103 aceea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar niciodat\u0103 despre o sor\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce nu mi-a spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pavel a cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu toate motivele. \u0218tiu doar c\u0103, acum mul\u021bi ani, s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat ceva care a desp\u0103r\u021bit familia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce anume?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul a privit spre poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elisa avea o feti\u021b\u0103. O chema Laura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se taie respira\u021bia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat cu ea?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A plecat cu Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
L-am privit f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 clipesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen urm\u0103 cu aproape cincizeci de ani. Feti\u021ba avea cam patru ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen acel moment mi-am amintit ma\u0219ina.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O Dacie alb\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O femeie pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd l\u00e2ng\u0103 poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i eu, ag\u0103\u021bat\u0103 de sc\u00e2ndurile ro\u0219ii, strig\u00e2nd c\u0103 nu vreau s\u0103 plec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu fusese un vis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Pavel m-a invitat s\u0103 stau c\u00e2teva minute pe banca din fa\u021ba casei lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a adus un pahar cu ap\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elisa era o femeie foarte bun\u0103, a \u00eenceput el. Dar via\u021ba n-a fost bl\u00e2nd\u0103 cu ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a povestit c\u0103 sora mai mic\u0103 a mamei mele se c\u0103s\u0103torise foarte t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 cu un b\u0103rbat pe nume Victor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput, totul p\u0103ruse frumos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Victor lucra la o fabric\u0103, iar Elisa avea grij\u0103 de cas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi lucrurile se schimbaser\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul \u00eencepuse s\u0103 bea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00ce\u0219i pierduse slujba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Devenise violent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa \u00eencercase de mai multe ori s\u0103 plece, dar nu avea bani \u0219i nici unde s\u0103 se duc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elena venea des aici, mi-a spus Pavel. \u00cei aducea m\u00e2ncare, haine \u0219i bani. \u00cencerca s\u0103 o conving\u0103 s\u0103 plece cu copilul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cu mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pavel a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A continuat s\u0103-mi povesteasc\u0103 despre o noapte \u00een care Victor se \u00eentorsese acas\u0103 beat \u0219i izbucnise o ceart\u0103 cumplit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa ajunsese la spital.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu fusesem luat\u0103 temporar de Elena \u0219i de so\u021bul ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ceea ce trebuia s\u0103 fie o solu\u021bie pentru c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni se transformase \u00eentr-o desp\u0103r\u021bire de aproape cincizeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar de ce nu m-am \u00eentors? am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pavel a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 lucrurile s-au complicat. Elisa s-a \u00eemboln\u0103vit, Victor a disp\u0103rut o vreme, iar familia a \u00eenceput s\u0103 ia decizii \u00een locul ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i nimeni nu m-a \u00eentrebat pe mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u0103rbatul m-a privit cu bl\u00e2nde\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Aveai patru ani, Laura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, mi-am dat seama c\u0103 nu c\u0103utam doar r\u0103spunsuri despre mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103utam r\u0103spunsuri despre copilul care fusesem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am plecat de la Pavel cu o adres\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa locuia acum \u00eentr-un centru de \u00eengrijire dintr-un ora\u0219 aflat la aproximativ patruzeci de kilometri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cenainte s\u0103 merg acolo, m-am oprit la o benzin\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am stat \u00een ma\u0219in\u0103 aproape o jum\u0103tate de or\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu puteam s\u0103 m\u0103 hot\u0103r\u0103sc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O parte din mine voia s\u0103 ajung\u0103 imediat la femeia aceea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O alt\u0103 parte era \u00eengrozit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 totul era adev\u0103rat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 femeia pe care o numisem mam\u0103 timp de cincizeci de ani \u00eemi ascunsese identitatea?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 Elisa m\u0103 c\u0103utase?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 eu fusesem convins\u0103 s\u0103 uit o persoan\u0103 care nu m\u0103 uitase niciodat\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am scos telefonul \u0219i am privit fotografia mamei mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia care \u00eemi f\u0103cuse sup\u0103 c\u00e2nd eram bolnav\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Care st\u0103tuse l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine \u00een prima zi de \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Care pl\u00e2nsese la nunta mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Care m\u0103 ajutase s\u0103-mi cresc copiii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu puteam s\u0103 \u00eempac acea femeie cu minciuna pe care tocmai o descopeream.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am format num\u0103rul ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencercat din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sunat-o pe vecina care trecea uneori s\u0103 o ajute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Doamna Elena este bine, mi-a spus femeia. A venit medicul de familie. Era foarte sl\u0103bit\u0103 \u0219i i-a recomandat investiga\u021bii \u0219i hidratare. Acum se odihne\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit un val de vinov\u0103\u021bie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama avea nevoie de mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u0219i eu aveam nevoie de adev\u0103r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am rugat-o pe vecin\u0103 s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 cu ea p\u00e2n\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorceam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am pornit spre centrul de \u00eengrijire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Cl\u0103direa era modest\u0103, dar curat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La recep\u021bie, o asistent\u0103 m-a \u00eentrebat pe cine c\u0103utam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pe doamna Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sunte\u021bi rud\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ezitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103 sunt fiica ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Asistenta m-a privit surprins\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a cerut s\u0103 a\u0219tept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva minute, a venit o femeie de aproximativ cincizeci de ani, care s-a prezentat drept coordonatoarea centrului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I-am explicat pe scurt situa\u021bia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ascultat cu aten\u021bie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg c\u0103 este foarte important pentru dumneavoastr\u0103, mi-a spus. Dar nu v\u0103 pot confirma informa\u021bii personale despre un rezident f\u0103r\u0103 verific\u0103rile necesare \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 acordul persoanei, dac\u0103 \u00eel poate oferi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pot s\u0103 discut cu doamna Elisa \u0219i s\u0103 v\u0103d dac\u0103 dore\u0219te s\u0103 v\u0103 primeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am a\u0219teptat pe un hol lung, cu pere\u021bi crem \u0219i tablouri cu flori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiu c\u00e2t timp a trecut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi se p\u0103rea c\u0103 aud fiecare secund\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, coordonatoarea s-a \u00eentors.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Doamna Elisa dore\u0219te s\u0103 v\u0103 vad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se \u00eenmoaie genunchii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Camera era la etajul \u00eent\u00e2i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd am intrat, am v\u0103zut o femeie foarte slab\u0103, cu p\u0103rul alb prins \u00eentr-un coc mic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
St\u0103tea \u00eentr-un fotoliu l\u00e2ng\u0103 fereastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Avea o p\u0103tur\u0103 peste genunchi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe m\u0103su\u021ba de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea se afla o fotografie veche.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am recunoscut imediat chipul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era femeia din aparatul foto.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cea l\u00e2ng\u0103 care st\u0103tuse mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa \u0219i-a ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u00e2teva secunde nu a spus nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi a \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 \u00eemi fuge p\u0103m\u00e2ntul de sub picioare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ochii i s-au umplut de lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura mea?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam ce s\u0103 fac.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 apropii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 s\u0103 o \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219ez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam nici m\u0103car dac\u0103 aveam dreptul s\u0103-i spun mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eentins m\u00e2na spre mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am crezut c\u0103 nu o s\u0103 te mai v\u0103d niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am apropiat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dumneavoastr\u0103 sunte\u021bi\u2026?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu am reu\u0219it s\u0103 termin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu te-am n\u0103scut, draga mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cuvintele acelea m-au lovit mai puternic dec\u00e2t orice explica\u021bie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu te-am n\u0103scut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cincizeci \u0219i trei de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i abia acum aflam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa mi-a povestit c\u00e2t a putut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori se oprea s\u0103-\u0219i trag\u0103 sufletul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Alteori pl\u00e2ngea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Avea probleme de s\u0103n\u0103tate \u0219i obosea repede, a\u0219a c\u0103 am ascultat-o f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 o gr\u0103besc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a spus c\u0103 m\u0103 n\u0103scuse \u00eentr-o diminea\u021b\u0103 de aprilie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 fusesem un copil lini\u0219tit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 \u00eemi pl\u0103cea s\u0103 adorm cu m\u00e2na prins\u0103 \u00een p\u0103rul ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 prima mea juc\u0103rie fusese o p\u0103pu\u0219\u0103 de c\u00e2rp\u0103, cusut\u0103 de ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i c\u0103 \u00eemi pl\u0103cea s\u0103 stau la poarta ro\u0219ie \u0219i s\u0103 privesc fluturele alb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu l-am pictat, mi-a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dumneavoastr\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu voiai un fluture. \u00cemi spuneai c\u0103, dac\u0103 va fi pe poart\u0103, o s\u0103 \u0219tie \u00eentotdeauna unde s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu-mi aminteam s\u0103 fi spus asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eemi aminteam fluturele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi aminteam m\u00e2na unei femei care \u021binea o pensul\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i mirosul vopselei proaspete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce m-a\u021bi l\u0103sat s\u0103 plec? am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 atunci am crezut c\u0103 te salvez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a povestit despre Victor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre nop\u021bile \u00een care se temea s\u0103 adoarm\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre ziua \u00een care el amenin\u021base c\u0103 m\u0103 va lua \u0219i va disp\u0103rea cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena intervenise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0103 dusese la ea pentru c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa acceptase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Crezuse c\u0103 se va \u00eentrema, c\u0103 va g\u0103si o locuin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i c\u0103 m\u0103 va putea lua \u00eenapoi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar apoi suferise o c\u0103dere psihic\u0103 sever\u0103 \u0219i fusese internat\u0103 o perioad\u0103 \u00eendelungat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd m-am \u00eentors, mi-au spus c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi este bine cu Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cine v-a spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 To\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 P\u0103rin\u021bii no\u0219tri. Victor. Chiar \u0219i unii oameni care ar fi trebuit s\u0103 m\u0103 ajute. Mi-au spus c\u0103 sunt prea bolnav\u0103 ca s\u0103 cresc un copil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit furia urc\u00e2ndu-mi \u00een piept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar m-a\u021bi c\u0103utat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa m-a privit direct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen fiecare an.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a ar\u0103tat un sertar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen\u0103untru era o cutie cu scrisori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zeci de plicuri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unele \u00eeng\u0103lbenite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Altele mai noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe fiecare era scris acela\u0219i nume.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Laura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Le-am atins cu v\u00e2rful degetelor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce sunt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Scrisorile pe care \u021bi le-am scris.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am luat una.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era datat\u0103 \u00een 1984.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eDraga mea Laura, ast\u0103zi \u00eempline\u0219ti unsprezece ani. Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi mai aminte\u0219ti de mine. Eu \u00eemi amintesc fiecare zi \u00een care te-am \u021binut \u00een bra\u021be.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am deschis alta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era din 1993.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eDraga mea Laura, poate acum e\u0219ti o t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 frumoas\u0103. Poate ai terminat liceul. Poate ai pe cineva care te iube\u0219te. Sper doar s\u0103 fii fericit\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce nu le-a\u021bi trimis?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa \u0219i-a \u0219ters lacrimile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 La \u00eenceput am \u00eencercat. Unele s-au \u00eentors. Apoi Elena mi-a spus c\u0103 \u021bi-ar face r\u0103u s\u0103 afli \u0219i c\u0103 ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 ui\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit un junghi \u00een piept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mama v-a spus asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-a spus c\u0103 aveai co\u0219maruri. C\u0103 pl\u00e2ngeai c\u00e2nd auzeai de casa de la \u021bar\u0103. C\u0103 trebuia s\u0103 te las s\u0103 cre\u0219ti lini\u0219tit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi aminteam co\u0219marurile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi aminteam poarta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar nu \u00eemi aminteam s\u0103 fi vrut s\u0103 uit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am crezut-o, a continuat Elisa. Era sora mea mai mare. Avea grij\u0103 de tine. \u0218i eu eram \u00eenc\u0103 bolnav\u0103. Mi-era team\u0103 s\u0103 nu te pierd de tot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar m-a\u021bi pierdut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu, draga mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am regretat imediat felul \u00een care rostisem cuvintele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar erau adev\u0103rate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i aveam nevoie s\u0103 le spun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas aproape dou\u0103 ore cu Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a povestit despre copil\u0103ria ei \u0219i a Elenei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre cum \u00eemp\u0103r\u021beau acela\u0219i pat \u00eentr-o cas\u0103 mic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre cum Elena fusese mereu cea responsabil\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cea care rezolva problemele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cea care \u00eei proteja pe ceilal\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-a spus c\u0103 Elena o ajutase enorm c\u00e2nd eu eram mic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 \u00eei cump\u0103rase medicamente.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 o dusese la doctor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 o ap\u0103ras\u0435 de Victor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i c\u0103, \u00een ciuda a tot ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase, nu reu\u0219ea s\u0103 o urasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elena te-a iubit, Laura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o surprins\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci de ce m-a min\u021bit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103, la \u00eenceput, i-a fost team\u0103 c\u0103 te va pierde dac\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi spune adev\u0103rul. Apoi au trecut anii \u0219i minciuna a devenit prea mare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat spre fereastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 puteam accepta explica\u021bia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eencepeam s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg c\u0103 povestea nu era at\u00e2t de simpl\u0103 cum crezusem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era doar despre o femeie bun\u0103 \u0219i una rea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era despre dou\u0103 surori care luaser\u0103 decizii \u00eentr-o perioad\u0103 \u00een care una dintre ele era vulnerabil\u0103, iar cealalt\u0103 credea c\u0103 \u0219tie ce este mai bine pentru to\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i despre un copil care nu avusese niciun cuv\u00e2nt de spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cenainte s\u0103 plec, Elisa m-a rugat s\u0103 deschid un sertar mic de l\u00e2ng\u0103 pat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen\u0103untru era o fotografie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O femeie t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103 \u021binea \u00een bra\u021be o feti\u021b\u0103 de aproximativ patru ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen spatele lor era poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia era Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Feti\u021ba eram eu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit fotografia mult timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pot s\u0103 o p\u0103strez?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a z\u00e2mbit printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am p\u0103strat-o cincizeci de ani pentru tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am str\u00e2ns fotografia la piept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 O s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia m-a privit cu ne\u00eencredere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Chiar o s\u0103 vii?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eentins m\u00e2na spre mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am prins-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era o m\u00e2n\u0103 mic\u0103, rece \u0219i foarte slab\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Te iubesc, Laura, a \u0219optit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva secunde f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 r\u0103spund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 nu voiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 rostesc acele cuvinte c\u0103tre o femeie pe care abia o cunoscusem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, i-am spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Vreau s\u0103 te cunosc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru mine este mai mult dec\u00e2t am \u00eendr\u0103znit s\u0103 sper.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd m-am \u00eentors acas\u0103, era aproape sear\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama st\u0103tea la masa din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen fa\u021ba ei era o cea\u0219c\u0103 de ceai neatins\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u0103rea \u0219i mai obosit\u0103 dec\u00e2t diminea\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut, a \u00eencercat s\u0103 z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Unde ai fost, draga mea?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am pus fotografia pe mas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Z\u00e2mbetul i-a disp\u0103rut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A privit imaginea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi s-a uitat la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am fost la Valea Merilor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai g\u0103sit casa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A urmat o t\u0103cere lung\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am g\u0103sit-o \u0219i pe Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai vorbit cu ea?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-a spus c\u0103 este mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu o v\u0103zusem pl\u00e2ng\u00e2nd astfel niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era un pl\u00e2ns ad\u00e2nc, obosit, de parc\u0103 \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it se pr\u0103bu\u0219ise ceva ce \u021binuse \u00een picioare zeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am a\u0219ezat \u00een fa\u021ba ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Vreau adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cel meri\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tot adev\u0103rul, mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena mi-a povestit despre noaptea \u00een care venise s\u0103 m\u0103 ia din casa Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu aveam patru ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Victor se \u00eentorsese beat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa fusese r\u0103nit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu pl\u00e2ngeam l\u00e2ng\u0103 poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena m\u0103 luase \u00een bra\u021be \u0219i m\u0103 dusese la ea acas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Credeam c\u0103 va fi pentru c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, mi-a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elisa avea nevoie de ajutor. Era bolnav\u0103, speriat\u0103 \u0219i nu avea bani. Victor o amenin\u021ba. Eu \u0219i tat\u0103l t\u0103u am decis s\u0103 avem grij\u0103 de tine p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd situa\u021bia se va lini\u0219ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i apoi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a \u0219ters lacrimile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Apoi Elisa a fost internat\u0103. Victor a \u00eenceput s\u0103 fac\u0103 probleme. P\u0103rin\u021bii no\u0219tri au insistat s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2i cu noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar Elisa era mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i dumneavoastr\u0103 era\u021bi sora ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am ridicat \u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 plimb prin buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce nu mi-a\u021bi spus niciodat\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a privit \u00een jos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 La \u00eenceput, pentru c\u0103 erai mic\u0103 \u0219i foarte speriat\u0103. Aveai co\u0219maruri. \u00ce\u021bi era fric\u0103 s\u0103 te \u00eentorci la casa aceea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi era fric\u0103 de Victor, nu de Elisa!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a tres\u0103rit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit lacrimile urc\u00e2ndu-mi \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi amintesc acum. \u00cemi era fric\u0103 de b\u0103rbatul acela. Dar \u00eemi era dor de femeia de la poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 mai tare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu asta acum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i c\u00e2nd am crescut?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu mi-a r\u0103spuns imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci mi-a fost fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u0103 m\u0103 vei ur\u00ee. C\u0103 vei sim\u021bi c\u0103 nu sunt mama ta. C\u0103 tot ce am construit \u00eempreun\u0103 va disp\u0103rea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o lung.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A\u0219a c\u0103 a\u021bi decis s\u0103-mi lua\u021bi dreptul de a \u0219ti cine sunt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cuv\u00e2ntul acela m-a durut mai mult dec\u00e2t orice explica\u021bie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u0103 nu \u00eencerca s\u0103 se scuze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Recuno\u0219tea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elisa mi-a ar\u0103tat scrisorile, am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eencremenit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce scrisori?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cele pe care mi le-a scris \u00een fiecare an.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena \u0219i-a cobor\u00e2t capul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Le-a\u021bi citit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pe unele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se face r\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i nu mi le-a\u021bi dat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 eram o la\u0219\u0103, Laura.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat la ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu o mai auzisem vorbind astfel despre sine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi spuneam c\u0103 te protejez, a continuat. Dar adev\u0103rul este c\u0103 m\u0103 protejam pe mine. Cu fiecare an care trecea, \u00eemi era tot mai greu s\u0103-\u021bi spun. \u0218i apoi a venit \u0219coala, liceul, nunta ta, copiii t\u0103i\u2026 Mereu g\u0103seam un motiv s\u0103 mai a\u0219tept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-a\u021bi furat cincizeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu, nu cred c\u0103 \u0219ti\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am ridicat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu am crescut crez\u00e2nd c\u0103 nu exist\u0103 nimeni altcineva. C\u0103 toate amintirile mele sunt vise. C\u0103 femeia de la poarta ro\u0219ie nu a existat niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 \u00een hohote.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i totu\u0219i, \u00een acel moment, nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 m\u0103 apropii de ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am nevoie de timp, i-am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea n-am putut s\u0103 dorm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am plimbat prin cas\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 diminea\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit fotografii vechi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am citit c\u00e2teva dintre scrisorile Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencercat s\u0103-mi amintesc lucruri pe care le \u00eengropasem \u00een minte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i m-am g\u00e2ndit la Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La toate nop\u021bile \u00een care m\u0103 \u00eengrijise c\u00e2nd eram bolnav\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La toate dimine\u021bile \u00een care m\u0103 dusese la \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La felul \u00een care \u00eemi preg\u0103tea m\u00e2ncarea preferat\u0103 c\u00e2nd veneam acas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La cum m\u0103 \u021binuse \u00een bra\u021be c\u00e2nd \u00eemi murise tat\u0103l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu puteam s\u0103 \u0219terg acei ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar nici nu puteam s\u0103 ignor ceea ce f\u0103cuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 adev\u0103ruri dureroase existau \u00een acela\u0219i timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena m\u0103 iubise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i Elena m\u0103 min\u021bise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa m\u0103 n\u0103scuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i Elisa fusese \u00eempiedicat\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 creasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu eram copilul am\u00e2ndurora, dar niciuna nu avusese dreptul s\u0103 decid\u0103 singur\u0103 ce trebuia s\u0103 \u0219tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A doua zi am mers cu Elena la medic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu mai acceptam explica\u021bia c\u0103 o sup\u0103rase pu\u021bin stomacul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Medicul a constatat c\u0103 era deshidratat\u0103 \u0219i sl\u0103bit\u0103, iar dup\u0103 investiga\u021bii a recomandat tratament \u0219i monitorizare. Starea ei fusese agravat\u0103 de faptul c\u0103 m\u00e2ncase foarte pu\u021bin \u00een timpul c\u0103l\u0103toriei \u0219i se epuizase fizic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am aflat atunci ce f\u0103cuse \u00een cele \u0219apte zile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu fusese \u00eentr-o vacan\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nici \u00eentr-o simpl\u0103 vizit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Margareta, vechea ei prieten\u0103, o contactase prin intermediul unei cuno\u0219tin\u021be comune.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cele dou\u0103 femei nu se mai v\u0103zuser\u0103 de dou\u0103zeci de ani, iar Margareta aflase recent c\u0103 Elisa era foarte bolnav\u0103 \u0219i c\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i dorea s\u0103 m\u0103 revad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cei spusese Elenei c\u0103 nu mai poate am\u00e2na adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama plecase s\u0103 o \u00eent\u00e2lneasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Petrecuse c\u00e2teva zile \u00eentre casa veche \u0219i centrul de \u00eengrijire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajutase la str\u00e2ngerea lucrurilor Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Transportase haine, fotografii \u0219i documente.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dormise foarte pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00e2ncase aproape deloc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i pl\u00e2nsese.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mult.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce nu mi-ai spus c\u0103 te duci acolo? am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a privit spre fereastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 voiam s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u0219i s\u0103-\u021bi spun totul fa\u021b\u0103 \u00een fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i valiza?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Era a Elisei. Mi-a cerut s\u0103-\u021bi aduc lucrurile ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci de ce ai \u00eencuiat-o?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 mi-a fost fric\u0103 \u00een ultima clip\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat la ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da. Din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 ce starea Elenei s-a stabilizat, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ne vedem mai des cu Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput mergeam singur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am dus-o \u0219i pe fiica mea cea mare, Ana, care avea dou\u0103zeci \u0219i \u0219apte de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I-am explicat totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A r\u0103mas uluit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Deci bunica Elena este, biologic, m\u0103tu\u0219a ta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ana a privit fotografia Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i aceast\u0103 femeie este bunica mea biologic\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fiica mea a r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 fie foarte greu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 \u00eemi spusese ceva extraordinar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ci pentru c\u0103, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, cineva \u00eemi recuno\u0219tea durerea f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eencerce s\u0103 o explice sau s\u0103 o mic\u0219oreze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, Elisa m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 o pot ajuta s\u0103 ias\u0103 pu\u021bin \u00een gr\u0103dina centrului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eempins scaunul ei cu rotile pe o alee cu flori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era o zi cald\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Soarele trecea printre frunzele copacilor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa \u021binea \u00een poal\u0103 un \u0219al sub\u021bire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura, pot s\u0103 te \u00eentreb ceva?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sigur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A ezitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti fericit\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat la ea surprins\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen general, da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai avut o copil\u0103rie frumoas\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am g\u00e2ndit c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da. \u00cen multe privin\u021be, da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci m\u0103 bucur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu e\u0219ti sup\u0103rat\u0103 c\u0103 spun asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu, draga mea. Am petrecut aproape cincizeci de ani \u00eentreb\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 dac\u0103 ai fost bine. Nu a\u0219 putea s\u0103 m\u0103 sup\u0103r pentru c\u0103 ai fost iubit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar ai fi vrut s\u0103 fii acolo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a z\u00e2mbit trist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen fiecare zi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi mi-a spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu trebuie s\u0103 alegi \u00eentre mine \u0219i Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 e\u0219ti furioas\u0103 pe ea. \u0218i ai dreptul s\u0103 fii. Dar nu vreau s\u0103 sim\u021bi c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 o ur\u0103\u0219ti ca s\u0103 m\u0103 iube\u0219ti pe mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa mi-a prins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Eu nu mai pot recupera anii aceia. Dar nu vreau s\u0103-\u021bi pierd \u0219i lini\u0219tea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen lunile urm\u0103toare, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg c\u00e2t de complicat\u0103 era povestea familiei mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena \u00eemi oferise stabilitate \u0219i iubire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar luase o decizie gre\u0219it\u0103 \u0219i continuase s\u0103 o ascund\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa fusese victima unor \u00eemprejur\u0103ri cumplite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar tr\u0103ise decenii \u00eentregi cu vinov\u0103\u021bia c\u0103 nu luptase suficient pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu m\u0103 sim\u021beam uneori furioas\u0103 pe am\u00e2ndou\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Alteori, \u00eemi era mil\u0103 de ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i uneori voiam doar s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00een timp, la v\u00e2rsta de patru ani, s\u0103 deschid poarta ro\u0219ie \u0219i s\u0103 le spun tuturor s\u0103 se opreasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentrebe \u0219i pe mine ce simt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0103 nu transforme o m\u0103sur\u0103 temporar\u0103 de protec\u021bie \u00eentr-o desp\u0103r\u021bire pe via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar trecutul nu putea fi schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Puteam doar s\u0103 decid ce fac cu adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, Elena m-a rugat s\u0103 st\u0103m de vorb\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Se sim\u021bea mai bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cencepuse s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nce normal \u0219i s\u0103-\u0219i recapete puterile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne-am a\u0219ezat la masa din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A pus \u00een fa\u021ba mea un dosar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce este? am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Actele pe care le-am p\u0103strat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am deschis dosarul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Erau documente vechi, fotografii \u0219i c\u00e2teva scrisori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unele se refereau la perioada \u00een care fusesem luat\u0103 din casa Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Altele la procedurile prin care Elena \u0219i so\u021bul ei deveniser\u0103 p\u0103rin\u021bii mei legali.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu am \u00een\u021beles toate detaliile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Unele documente erau incomplete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Altele necesitau verific\u0103ri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar am g\u0103sit ceva ce m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 opresc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O scrisoare scris\u0103 de Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era datat\u0103 la c\u00e2\u021biva ani dup\u0103 plecarea mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eElena, \u0219tiu c\u0103 Laura este bine cu tine. \u0218tiu c\u0103 ai f\u0103cut pentru ea lucruri pe care eu nu am putut s\u0103 le fac atunci. Dar te rog s\u0103 nu-i spui c\u0103 nu am iubit-o. Dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi m\u0103 va \u00eentreba, spune-i c\u0103 nu am \u00eencetat niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 fiu mama ei.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o pe Elena.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai citit asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i totu\u0219i mi-ai spus c\u0103 amintirile mele sunt vise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama \u0219i-a cobor\u00e2t capul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas mult timp t\u0103cute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi Elena a spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura, nu-\u021bi cer s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi ast\u0103zi. Nici m\u00e2ine. Poate nu vei putea niciodat\u0103. Dar vreau s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 \u00eemi pare r\u0103u pentru fiecare zi \u00een care \u021bi-am ascuns adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 pot s\u0103 te iert acum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar nici nu vreau s\u0103 te pierd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nici eu nu vreau s\u0103 te pierd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am ridicat \u0219i am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu a fost o \u00eemp\u0103care complet\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu a \u0219ters minciuna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar a fost primul moment \u00een care am sim\u021bit c\u0103 putem \u00eencepe s\u0103 vorbim f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ne mai ascundem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni mai t\u00e2rziu, am f\u0103cut ceva ce nu mi-a\u0219 fi imaginat vreodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Le-am dus pe Elena \u0219i Elisa \u00een aceea\u0219i gr\u0103din\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era prima dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd cele dou\u0103 surori se vedeau dup\u0103 c\u0103l\u0103toria care schimbase totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa st\u0103tea \u00een scaunul cu rotile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena mergea \u00eencet, sprijinindu-se \u00eentr-un baston.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd s-au v\u0103zut, am\u00e2ndou\u0103 au \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu s-au \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva secunde privindu-se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi Elisa a \u00eentins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Elena\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama s-a apropiat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Iart\u0103-m\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremure.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am pierdut at\u00e2t de mult timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena i-a prins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Le-am privit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 femei de aproape optzeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 surori care \u00ee\u0219i petrecuser\u0103 via\u021ba separate de o decizie pe care niciuna nu mai putea s\u0103 o schimbe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i eu, fiica uneia \u0219i copilul crescut de cealalt\u0103, st\u0103team l\u00e2ng\u0103 ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, povestea noastr\u0103 nu mai avea nevoie de o minciun\u0103 pentru a continua.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa nu s-a \u00eens\u0103n\u0103to\u0219it miraculos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Avea mai multe probleme medicale \u0219i avea nevoie de \u00eengrijire permanent\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar starea ei emo\u021bional\u0103 s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cencepuse s\u0103 a\u0219tepte vizitele mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi cerea fotografii cu nepo\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Voia s\u0103 \u0219tie ce m\u00e2ncare \u00eemi place.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ce c\u0103r\u021bi citesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dac\u0103 mai am obiceiul s\u0103 c\u00e2nt c\u00e2nd g\u0103tesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o zi, m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 \u00eemi amintesc c\u00e2ntecul cu care m\u0103 adormea c\u00e2nd eram mic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 c\u00e2nte \u00eencet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era un c\u00e2ntec vechi, despre o pas\u0103re care se \u00eentoarce acas\u0103 prim\u0103vara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit imediat un fior.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu-mi aminteam toate cuvintele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar recuno\u0219team melodia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i pentru o clip\u0103 am avut din nou patru ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eram \u00eentr-o camer\u0103 mic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe fereastr\u0103 intra lumina dup\u0103-amiezii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O femeie m\u0103 \u021binea \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i c\u00e2nta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa s-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am prins-o de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi amintesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ochii i s-au umplut de lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Chiar?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi amintesc c\u00e2ntecul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103 \u00een acela\u0219i timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00ce\u021bi c\u00e2ntam \u00een fiecare sear\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, nu m-am mai g\u00e2ndit dac\u0103 am dreptul s\u0103 fac asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pur \u0219i simplu am f\u0103cut-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen anul urm\u0103tor, am organizat o mas\u0103 de familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era o aniversare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era o s\u0103rb\u0103toare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era doar o duminic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena preg\u0103tise pl\u0103cint\u0103 cu mere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu f\u0103cusem friptur\u0103 \u0219i salat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Copiii mei aduseser\u0103 pr\u0103jituri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar Elisa venise pentru c\u00e2teva ore, \u00eenso\u021bit\u0103 de o \u00eengrijitoare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am a\u0219ezat-o l\u00e2ng\u0103 fereastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena i-a adus o farfurie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u021ai-am f\u0103cut pl\u0103cinta care \u00ee\u021bi pl\u0103cea c\u00e2nd eram mici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cu scor\u021bi\u0219oar\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cu mult\u0103 scor\u021bi\u0219oar\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au \u00eenceput s\u0103 r\u00e2d\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Le-am privit de la cap\u0103tul mesei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u00e2teva secunde, am sim\u021bit o triste\u021be profund\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la toate mesele pe care le-am fi putut avea \u00eempreun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La toate anivers\u0103rile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La toate Cr\u0103ciunurile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La toate pove\u0219tile pe care nu le auzisem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar apoi fiica mea Ana s-a apropiat \u0219i mi-a pus m\u00e2na pe um\u0103r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, e\u0219ti bine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit \u00een jur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena t\u0103ia pl\u0103cinta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa \u00eei povestea nepotului meu despre copil\u0103ria ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toat\u0103 lumea vorbea \u00een acela\u0219i timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103, r\u0103spunsul era adev\u0103rat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen acea sear\u0103, dup\u0103 ce musafirii au plecat, Elena m-a ajutat s\u0103 str\u00e2ng masa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La un moment dat, s-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da, mam\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-ai spus mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am \u00eentors spre ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u00eemi d\u0103dusem seama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Folosiser\u0103m cuv\u00e2ntul acela toat\u0103 via\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar dup\u0103 ce aflasem adev\u0103rul, \u00eencepusem s\u0103 ezit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acum \u00eel rostisem f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am apropiat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 e\u0219ti mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 mai tare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am prins-o de m\u00e2ini.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Dar Elisa este \u0219i ea mama mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i nu mai vreau s\u0103 ascundem asta niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Niciodat\u0103, a promis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 iertasem totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Poate c\u0103 unele r\u0103ni nu dispar complet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Poate c\u0103 iertarea nu vine \u00eentr-o singur\u0103 zi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00een\u021belesesem ceva important.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu trebuia s\u0103 neg iubirea pe care o primisem de la Elena pentru a recunoa\u0219te nedreptatea f\u0103cut\u0103 Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i nu trebuia s\u0103 renun\u021b la una dintre ele pentru a o avea pe cealalt\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La c\u00e2teva luni dup\u0103 acea duminic\u0103, Elisa s-a stins lini\u0219tit, dup\u0103 o perioad\u0103 \u00een care starea ei de s\u0103n\u0103tate se deteriorase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am fost l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena era \u0219i ea acolo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen ultimele zile, Elisa obosea foarte repede \u0219i vorbea pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eentr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103, c\u00e2nd m-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul ei, mi-a prins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am apropiat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Sunt aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A z\u00e2mbit slab.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai fost fericit\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am sim\u021bit lacrimile adun\u00e2ndu-se.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da, mam\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenchis ochii pentru o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd i-a deschis din nou, avea lacrimi pe obraji.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci sunt \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 am avut at\u00e2t de pu\u021bin timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elisa mi-a str\u00e2ns m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am avut timp s\u0103 te v\u0103d. S\u0103 te aud. S\u0103 te \u021bin din nou de m\u00e2n\u0103. Pentru mine a \u00eensemnat totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am aplecat capul \u0219i am s\u0103rutat-o pe frunte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Te iubesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu te iubesc, feti\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au fost ultimele cuvinte pe care mi le-a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntare, am mers din nou la casa cu poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a venit cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am stat am\u00e2ndou\u0103 \u00een fa\u021ba gardului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fluturele alb era aproape \u0219ters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ar trebui s\u0103-l refacem, am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am cump\u0103rat vopsea ro\u0219ie \u0219i alb\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am cur\u0103\u021bat sc\u00e2ndurile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am reparat balamalele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am pictat din nou fluturele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era perfect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Una dintre aripi ie\u0219ise pu\u021bin mai mare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar c\u00e2nd am terminat, m-am dat c\u00e2\u021biva pa\u0219i \u00eenapoi \u0219i am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ar\u0103ta aproape ca \u00een amintirea mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena st\u0103tea l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cemi amintesc ziua \u00een care Elisa l-a pictat prima dat\u0103, a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Serios?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu st\u0103teai l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea \u0219i \u00eei spuneai c\u0103 fluturele trebuie s\u0103 fie mare, ca s\u0103-l po\u021bi vedea de departe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A\u0219a mi-a povestit \u0219i ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama mi-a prins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas am\u00e2ndou\u0103 \u00een fa\u021ba por\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, locul acela nu mi-a mai provocat doar team\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era un loc al adev\u0103rului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Al durerii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u0219i al unei iubiri pe care aproape cincizeci de ani de t\u0103cere nu reu\u0219iser\u0103 s\u0103 o distrug\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ast\u0103zi, c\u00e2nd privesc valiza neagr\u0103 pe care mama a adus-o de la gar\u0103, nu m\u0103 mai g\u00e2ndesc la ea ca la un obiect misterios.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O p\u0103strez \u00eentr-un dulap din camera mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen\u0103untru sunt scrisorile Elisei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fotografiile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aparatul foto.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i c\u00e2teva dintre lucrurile ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori o deschid \u0219i citesc c\u00e2te o scrisoare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Alteori doar privesc fotografia \u00een care m\u0103 \u021bine \u00een bra\u021be l\u00e2ng\u0103 poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 adev\u0103rul poate veni foarte t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori at\u00e2t de t\u00e2rziu, \u00eenc\u00e2t nu mai ai timp s\u0103 pui toate \u00eentreb\u0103rile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar asta nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 nu merit\u0103 s\u0103-l afli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mama mea, Elena, are acum peste optzeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cenc\u0103 preg\u0103te\u0219te pr\u0103jituri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cenc\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 dac\u0103 am m\u00e2ncat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i \u00eenc\u0103 ne adun\u0103m duminica la mas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eentre noi nu mai exist\u0103 secretul acela.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vorbim despre Elisa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre copil\u0103ria lor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre gre\u0219elile f\u0103cute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Despre anii pierdu\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i despre faptul c\u0103 iubirea nu ne d\u0103 dreptul s\u0103 hot\u0103r\u00e2m ce adev\u0103r merit\u0103 s\u0103 cunoasc\u0103 altcineva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, \u00een timp ce puneam farfuriile pe mas\u0103, Elena m-a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Laura, crezi c\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi vei putea s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi complet?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am privit-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Femeia aceea m\u0103 crescuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0103 iubise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0103 protejase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar m\u0103 \u0219i min\u021bise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am luat-o de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc cu tot ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat. Nu pot s\u0103-\u021bi promit c\u0103 n-o s\u0103 m\u0103 mai doar\u0103. Dar pot s\u0103-\u021bi promit c\u0103 nu vreau s\u0103 ne mai pierdem timpul ascunz\u00e2ndu-ne una de cealalt\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elena a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Este mai mult dec\u00e2t merit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103 vorbim despre ce merit\u0103m. Vreau s\u0103 vorbim despre ce putem face de acum \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A z\u00e2mbit printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi s-a \u00eentors spre cuptor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci ajut\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 scot pl\u0103cinta. Se arde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 r\u00e2d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era at\u00e2t de tipic pentru ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00e2t de obi\u0219nuit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i, dup\u0103 tot ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase, at\u00e2t de pre\u021bios.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen seara aceea, dup\u0103 ce mama a plecat la culcare, am deschis valiza neagr\u0103 pentru ultima dat\u0103 \u00eenainte s\u0103 o a\u0219ez la loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am luat fotografia cu poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe spatele ei, Elisa scrisese cu litere mici:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePentru Laura, ca s\u0103 \u0219tie \u00eentotdeauna unde a \u00eenceput povestea ei.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u021binut fotografia \u00een m\u00e2ini mult timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am pus-o \u00eentr-o ram\u0103, l\u00e2ng\u0103 o fotografie cu Elena \u021bin\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een prima mea zi de \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 femei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 pove\u0219ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dou\u0103 feluri de iubire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Una \u00eemi d\u0103duse via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cealalt\u0103 m\u0103 crescuse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am\u00e2ndou\u0103 f\u0103cuser\u0103 gre\u0219eli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am\u00e2ndou\u0103 m\u0103 iubiser\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar eu nu mai eram nevoit\u0103 s\u0103 aleg ce parte din trecutul meu avea voie s\u0103 existe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am stins lumina.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 foarte mul\u021bi ani, am visat din nou poarta ro\u0219ie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar de data aceasta nu mai pl\u00e2ngeam l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O deschideam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar dincolo de ea nu mai era o desp\u0103r\u021bire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era drumul spre cas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n