Am tras aer \u00een piept \u0219i am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. Nu mai eram femeia care se scuza, care explica, care \u00eendulcea lucrurile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Andrei, \u2014 am spus rar, \u2014 a\u0219eaz\u0103-te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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S-au uitat am\u00e2ndoi la mine mira\u021bi. Ioana a \u00eencruci\u0219at bra\u021bele. Andrei a r\u0103mas \u00een picioare, nervos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 De ani de zile v\u0103 ajut. C\u00e2nd a fost avansul la apartament, am scos economiile. C\u00e2nd a fost ma\u0219ina, am t\u0103cut. C\u00e2nd n-a\u021bi avut bani de vacan\u021b\u0103, am completat eu. N-am zis nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Dar sunte\u021bi mama mea! \u2014 a izbucnit el. \u2014 Asta fac mamele!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Nu, \u2014 am r\u0103spuns calm. \u2014 Mamele cresc copii. Nu \u00eei \u00eentre\u021bin la nesf\u00e2r\u0219it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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A fost o lini\u0219te grea. Se auzea doar ceasul din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 \u0218tii ce n-am avut eu niciodat\u0103? \u2014 am continuat. \u2014 O hain\u0103 nou\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 simt vinovat\u0103. O vacan\u021b\u0103. O zi \u00een care s\u0103 spun \u201e\u0219i eu contez\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ioana a oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Dar noi avem nevoie acum\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 \u0218tiu, \u2014 am spus. \u2014 Dar \u0219i eu am avut nevoie acum. De mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Andrei s-a a\u0219ezat pe scaun. L-am v\u0103zut pentru prima oar\u0103 mic. Nu furios. Ci dezorientat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Mam\u0103\u2026 \u2014 a spus mai \u00eencet. \u2014 Ne-a fost greu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 \u0218tiu. Dar greu mi-a fost \u0219i mie. \u0218i nimeni nu m-a \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am plecat de la ei \u00een seara aceea mai devreme. Pe drum, mi se rupea sufletul. Nu o s\u0103 mint. M-am sim\u021bit egoist\u0103. M-am sim\u021bit vinovat\u0103. Dar, sub toate astea, era \u0219i altceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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U\u0219urare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Au urmat c\u00e2teva s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni reci. Andrei suna rar. Ioana deloc. La \u00eenceput, pl\u00e2ngeam seara. Apoi, tot mai pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, am ie\u0219it la plimbare \u00een parc. Soare, copii, oameni simpli. Am stat pe o banc\u0103 \u0219i m-am g\u00e2ndit: \u201eA\u0219a arat\u0103 lini\u0219tea\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00centr-o sear\u0103, a sunat telefonul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Mam\u0103\u2026 \u2014 vocea lui Andrei era altfel. \u2014 Am vrut s\u0103-\u021bi spun ceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Ne-am reorganizat. Am t\u0103iat din cheltuieli. Am vorbit cu banca. Ne descurc\u0103m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am sim\u021bit cum mi se umezesc ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Bine, \u2014 am spus. \u2014 M\u0103 bucur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 \u0218i\u2026 \u2014 a ezitat. \u2014 Poate\u2026 dac\u0103 ai timp, am vrea s\u0103 venim pe la tine. La o cafea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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C\u00e2nd au venit, Ioana mi-a adus o pr\u0103jitur\u0103. Simpl\u0103. De cas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u, \u2014 a spus \u00eencet. \u2014 N-am v\u0103zut c\u00e2t a\u021bi dat dumneavoastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Nu era o scuz\u0103 mare. Dar era sincer\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ast\u0103zi, rela\u021bia noastr\u0103 e diferit\u0103. Nu mai cer automat. \u00centreab\u0103. Iar eu nu mai dau automat. Aleg.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Haina de blan\u0103 o port rar. Dar de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd o \u00eembrac, \u00eemi amintesc ceva important.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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La 52 de ani am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 spun \u201enu\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i, culmea, abia atunci am devenit o mam\u0103 mai bun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n Aceast\u0103 lucrare este inspirat\u0103 din evenimente \u0219i persoane reale, \u00eens\u0103 a fost fic\u021bionalizat\u0103 \u00een scopuri creative. Numele, personajele \u0219i detaliile au fost schimbate pentru a proteja intimitatea \u0219i pentru a \u00eembun\u0103t\u0103\u021bi nara\u021biunea. Orice asem\u0103nare cu persoane reale, \u00een via\u021b\u0103 sau decedate, sau cu evenimente reale este pur \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare \u0219i nu este inten\u021bionat\u0103 de c\u0103tre autor.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Autorul \u0219i editorul nu \u00ee\u0219i asum\u0103 responsabilitatea pentru exactitatea evenimentelor sau pentru modul \u00een care sunt portretizate personajele \u0219i nu sunt r\u0103spunz\u0103tori pentru eventuale interpret\u0103ri gre\u0219ite. Aceast\u0103 poveste este oferit\u0103 \u201eca atare\u201d, iar orice opinii exprimate apar\u021bin personajelor \u0219i nu reflect\u0103 punctele de vedere ale autorului sau ale editorului.<\/em><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Am tras aer \u00een piept \u0219i am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. Nu mai eram femeia care se scuza, care explica, care \u00eendulcea lucrurile.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":49985,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51195"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=51195"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51195\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51196,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51195\/revisions\/51196"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/49985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=51195"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=51195"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=51195"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}