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Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii<\/em>\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00a0Tata a r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe cu privirea \u00een podea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Eu am fost cel care le-a cerut s\u0103 nu-\u021bi spun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Am crezut c\u0103 n-am auzit bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Tu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am uitat spre mama \u0219i Mihai. Niciunul nu spunea nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 De ce ai face asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata \u0219i-a \u00eempreunat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd am primit diagnosticul, tu tocmai \u00eemi spusese\u0219i c\u0103 divor\u021bezi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Te auzeam la telefon cum \u00eencercai s\u0103 pari bine, Elena. Dar eu sunt tat\u0103l t\u0103u. \u0218tiam c\u0103 nu erai bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218i ai hot\u0103r\u00e2t c\u0103 e mai bine s\u0103 nu \u0219tiu c\u0103 e\u0219ti bolnav?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Am hot\u0103r\u00e2t c\u0103 nu vreau s\u0103-\u021bi distrugi \u0219i via\u021ba ta pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am sim\u021bit din nou furia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu aveai dreptul s\u0103 hot\u0103r\u0103\u0219ti asta \u00een locul meu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n R\u0103spunsul lui m-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu s-a ap\u0103rat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu, a repetat. \u0218i dac\u0103 a\u0219 putea s\u0103 dau timpul \u00eenapoi, poate a\u0219 face altfel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama \u0219i-a \u0219ters ochii cu col\u021bul \u0219or\u021bului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 La \u00eenceput trebuia s\u0103 fie doar p\u00e2n\u0103 aflam exact ce are. Dup\u0103 aceea p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eencepea tratamentul. Apoi ne-am spus c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi spunem dup\u0103 divor\u021b\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218i au trecut \u0219ase luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am \u00eentors spre Mihai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Iar tu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n A ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Eu am vrut s\u0103-\u021bi spun la \u00eenceput.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu m\u0103 a\u0219teptam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci de ce n-ai f\u0103cut-o?<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n A r\u00e2s amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 dup\u0103 primele drumuri la Ia\u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 fiu furios pe tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pe mine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da. Eu \u00eemi luam liber de la serviciu, conduceam, st\u0103team cu tata prin spitale, m\u0103 \u00eentorceam noaptea. Mama era terminat\u0103. \u0218i tu sunai \u0219i spuneai c\u0103 ai \u0219edin\u021b\u0103 sau c\u0103 nu po\u021bi veni \u00een weekend.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 nu \u0219tiam ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103!<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu asta acum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiai \u0219i atunci!<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu, Elena. Atunci vedeam doar c\u0103 eu r\u0103m\u0103sesem aici \u0219i tu plecase\u0219i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am vrut s\u0103-i r\u0103spund, dar mi-am dat seama c\u0103 pentru prima dat\u0103 Mihai nu m\u0103 ataca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cemi spunea ce sim\u021bise.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 M\u0103 uitam la via\u021ba ta \u0219i aveam impresia c\u0103 tu ai sc\u0103pat, a continuat el. Bucure\u0219ti, serviciu bun, ie\u0219iri, c\u0103l\u0103torii\u2026 iar noi eram aici cu spitalele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am sim\u021bit ceva rup\u00e2ndu-se \u00een mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Tu ai v\u0103zut fotografiile, Mihai. N-ai v\u0103zut ce era dup\u0103 ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 N-ai v\u0103zut c\u0103snicia mea termin\u00e2ndu-se. N-ai v\u0103zut cum c\u0103utam apartament \u00een timp ce \u00eencercam s\u0103-mi p\u0103strez serviciul. N-ai v\u0103zut nop\u021bile \u00een care nu dormeam. \u0218i \u0219tii de ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 De ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 nici voi nu m\u0103 mai \u00eentreba\u021bi de ani de zile dac\u0103 sunt bine. M\u0103 \u00eentreba\u021bi doar c\u00e2nd vin acas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama s-a a\u0219ezat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 ne era dor de tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci de ce nu mi-ai spus niciodat\u0103 \u201cmi-e dor de tine\u201d? De ce trebuia s\u0103 aud mereu \u201cai uitat de noi\u201d, \u201cte-a schimbat Bucure\u0219tiul\u201d, \u201cai devenit important\u0103\u201d?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama \u0219i-a cobor\u00e2t privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 am fost sup\u0103rat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n A durat p\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru c\u0103 ai plecat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am sim\u021bit c\u0103-mi dau lacrimile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mam\u0103, aveam nou\u0103sprezece ani. Am plecat la facultate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci ce voiai s\u0103 fac?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nimic. S\u0103 pleci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dar asta nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 nu m-a durut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pentru prima dat\u0103 am \u00een\u021beles ceva ce mama nu fusese niciodat\u0103 capabil\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 simplu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Fiecare ironie despre Bucure\u0219ti ascunsese, de fapt, un repro\u0219 mult mai simplu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cMi-e dor de tine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Numai c\u0103 dup\u0103 at\u00e2\u021bia ani, repro\u0219urile m\u0103 f\u0103cuser\u0103 s\u0103 vin tot mai rar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tii ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat, mam\u0103? Cu c\u00e2t \u00eemi repro\u0219ai mai mult c\u0103 nu vin, cu at\u00e2t \u00eemi era mai greu s\u0103 vin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata ne asculta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Suntem o familie de pro\u0219ti, a spus la un moment dat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am uitat la el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A z\u00e2mbit slab.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ne iubim \u0219i ne purt\u0103m de parc\u0103 ne deranj\u0103m unii pe al\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mihai a pufnit scurt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 M\u0103car la asta suntem uni\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu pentru c\u0103 era ceva amuzant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Probabil pentru c\u0103, dac\u0103 nu r\u00e2deam, \u00eencepeam to\u021bi s\u0103 pl\u00e2ngem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi am pus \u00eentrebarea de care \u00eemi fusese fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 C\u00e2t de grav este?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata nu mi-a mai ascuns nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tratamentul \u00eencepuse, dar boala era serioas\u0103. Urmau alte investiga\u021bii \u0219i alte drumuri la Ia\u0219i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n De data aceasta am vrut s\u0103 \u0219tiu tot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Date.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Program\u0103ri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ce spusese medicul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ce avea nevoie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u00eendulceasc\u0103 anumite lucruri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mam\u0103, gata. F\u0103r\u0103 secrete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 F\u0103r\u0103 secrete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen seara aceea am r\u0103mas to\u021bi patru \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie p\u00e2n\u0103 t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am aflat c\u00e2t de greu le fusese.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama v\u00e2nduse dou\u0103 bijuterii vechi pentru cheltuieli. Mihai \u00ee\u0219i consumase aproape toate zilele libere cu drumurile la spital.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Iar ei au aflat lucruri pe care nici eu nu le spusesem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0103 divor\u021bul nu fusese alegerea mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0103 fostul meu so\u021b plecase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0103 uneori r\u0103m\u00e2neam la serviciu p\u00e2n\u0103 seara t\u00e2rziu doar pentru c\u0103 nu voiam s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00eentr-un apartament gol.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama m-a privit mult timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 De ce nu ne-ai spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am z\u00e2mbit trist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Probabil din acela\u0219i motiv pentru care voi nu mi-a\u021bi spus despre tata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N-a mai avut ce s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen noaptea aceea am dormit \u00een camera copil\u0103riei mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Diminea\u021ba, tata mi-a b\u0103tut \u00eencet \u00een u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dormi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu prea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A intrat \u0219i s-a a\u0219ezat pe marginea patului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103-\u021bi abandonezi via\u021ba pentru mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218i eu nu vreau s\u0103 mai aflu dup\u0103 \u0219ase luni c\u0103 e\u0219ti bolnav.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Corect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 O s\u0103 vorbesc la serviciu. Pot lucra c\u00e2teva zile de acas\u0103 \u0219i o s\u0103 vin mai des. La urm\u0103torul drum la Ia\u0219i merg eu cu tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A vrut s\u0103 protesteze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu negociem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Asta ai de la maic\u0103-ta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Din p\u0103cate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Din buc\u0103t\u0103rie s-a auzit imediat vocea mamei:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Aud!<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u00e2s am\u00e2ndoi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi tata a devenit serios.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Elena\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dac\u0103 tot ai venit, stai un pic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Stau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu asta spun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-a privit drept \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Stai ca fiica mea. Nu ca musafir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Atunci am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am aplecat \u0219i l-am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at cu grij\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mi-a fost dor de tine, tat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu. Nu cred c\u0103 \u0219tiai.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-a str\u00e2ns pu\u021bin mai tare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci spune-mi mai des.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva zile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu mi-am mutat via\u021ba \u00eenapoi \u00een sat \u0219i nici nu mi-am abandonat serviciul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar am schimbat ceva mai important.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am \u00eencetat s\u0103 mai tr\u0103im unii l\u00e2ng\u0103 al\u021bii prin presupuneri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u00e2nd mama era speriat\u0103, a \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 c\u0103 este speriat\u0103, nu s\u0103 m\u0103 certe c\u0103 sunt la Bucure\u0219ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u00e2nd Mihai avea nevoie s\u0103-l \u00eenlocuiesc la un drum la Ia\u0219i, m\u0103 suna \u0219i \u00eemi spunea direct.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Iar eu am \u00eenceput s\u0103 spun \u201cnu pot ast\u0103zi, dar pot joi\u201d, \u00een loc s\u0103 promit vag c\u0103 \u201cvin c\u00e2t de cur\u00e2nd\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n La urm\u0103toarea consulta\u021bie am mers eu cu tata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen ma\u0219in\u0103, la \u00eentoarcere, a privit mult timp pe geam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 nu-\u021bi fie mil\u0103 de mine, mi-a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu-mi este.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S-a \u00eentors surprins.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mi-e fric\u0103 pentru tine. E altceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 A\u0219a mai merge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Boala nu a disp\u0103rut pentru c\u0103 noi ne \u00eemp\u0103caser\u0103m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Au urmat luni grele, tratamente, zile bune \u0219i zile \u00een care tata abia avea putere s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar nu le-am mai tr\u0103it separat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i nici eu nu m-am mai sim\u021bit o str\u0103in\u0103 c\u00e2nd intram pe poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00centr-o duminic\u0103, c\u00e2teva luni mai t\u00e2rziu, am ajuns acas\u0103 \u0219i mama a ie\u0219it pe trepte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am preg\u0103tit instinctiv pentru:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201c\u00cen sf\u00e2r\u0219it ai venit.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar n-a spus-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A venit la mine, mi-a luat geanta din m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mi-a fost dor de tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Patru cuvinte pe care le a\u0219teptasem ani \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Din u\u0219\u0103, Mihai a strigat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 eu n-am de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 te \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219ez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nici nu speram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dar am f\u0103cut cafea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci te iert.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata r\u00e2dea din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am intrat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Casa era aceea\u0219i.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Aceea\u0219i mas\u0103, aceea\u0219i curte, aceia\u0219i oameni \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2na\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar ceva se schimbase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mult\u0103 vreme crezusem c\u0103 distan\u021ba dintre mine \u0219i familia mea se m\u0103sura \u00een kilometrii dintre Bucure\u0219ti \u0219i casa p\u0103rin\u021bilor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu se m\u0103surase niciodat\u0103 \u00een kilometri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Se m\u0103surase \u00een toate lucrurile pe care ne fusese prea greu s\u0103 ni le spunem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama nu \u0219tiuse s\u0103 spun\u0103 \u201cmi-e dor de tine\u201d, a\u0219a c\u0103 spusese \u201cai uitat de noi\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mihai nu \u0219tiuse s\u0103 spun\u0103 \u201cmi-e greu singur\u201d, a\u0219a c\u0103 spusese \u201ctu ai plecat\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eu nu \u0219tiusem s\u0103 spun \u201cm\u0103 doare s\u0103 vin acas\u0103 \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 simt judecat\u0103\u201d, a\u0219a c\u0103 venisem tot mai rar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Iar tata crezuse c\u0103 m\u0103 protejeaz\u0103 ascunz\u00e2ndu-mi cel mai important adev\u0103r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Niciunul dintre noi nu iubise mai pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Doar c\u0103, pentru prea mult timp, iubiser\u0103m prost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i uneori, ca s\u0103 repari o familie, primul lucru pe care trebuie s\u0103-l faci este s\u0103 \u00eencetezi s\u0103 mai a\u0219tep\u021bi ca ceilal\u021bi s\u0103 ghiceasc\u0103 ce sim\u021bi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii\u00a0 \u00a0Tata a r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe cu privirea \u00een podea. \u2014 Eu am fost cel care le-a cerut s\u0103 nu-\u021bi<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":49985,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50205"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=50205"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50205\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":50206,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50205\/revisions\/50206"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/49985"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=50205"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=50205"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=50205"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}