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Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii<\/em>\u00a0\u00a0Trei s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n At\u00e2t a trecut f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 primesc niciun semn de la tata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu m\u0103 suna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu-mi scria.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu r\u0103spundea nici m\u0103car cu acel \u201ebine\u201d sec pe care \u00eel trimitea de obicei c\u00e2nd era sup\u0103rat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n La \u00eenceput mi-am spus c\u0103 asta \u00eemi dorisem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n Lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u0103 nu-mi mai tresar\u0103 stomacul c\u00e2nd vedeam \u201eTata\u201d pe ecran.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u0103 nu mai aud \u00eentreb\u0103ri despre copii, despre v\u00e2rst\u0103, despre \u201ece zice lumea\u201d sau despre casa care, \u00een mintea lui, trebuia neap\u0103rat umplut\u0103 de nepo\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar lini\u0219tea nu sem\u0103na deloc cu libertatea pe care mi-o imaginasem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen fiecare sear\u0103 \u00eemi verificam telefonul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n De c\u00e2teva ori am deschis conversa\u021bia cu el \u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 scriu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201eTat\u0103, hai s\u0103 nu r\u0103m\u00e2nem a\u0219a\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi \u0219tergeam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00centr-o sear\u0103, Radu m-a v\u0103zut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Vrei s\u0103-l suni?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci sun\u0103-l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am uitat surprins\u0103 la el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Credeam c\u0103 o s\u0103-mi spui s\u0103 nu cedez.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103-l suni pentru c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi este dor de el nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 cedezi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A f\u0103cut o pauz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103-i promi\u021bi un copil doar ca s\u0103 te iubeasc\u0103 din nou ar \u00eensemna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am l\u0103sat telefonul jos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Asta era diferen\u021ba pe care trebuia s-o \u00eenv\u0103\u021b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Puteam s\u0103-mi iubesc tat\u0103l f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-i dau dreptul s\u0103-mi conduc\u0103 via\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Primul semn a venit de la mama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-a sunat \u00eentr-o miercuri sear\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva minute \u00een care mi-a povestit despre vecini, gr\u0103din\u0103 \u0219i pre\u021bul ro\u0219iilor, vocea i s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Taic\u0103-tu a \u00eentrebat de tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ce a \u00eentrebat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dac\u0103 sunte\u021bi bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n At\u00e2t de pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i totu\u0219i, venind de la el, p\u0103rea enorm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218i ce i-ai spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 C\u0103 sunte\u021bi bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama a ezitat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ioana\u2026 s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 mai cite\u0219te mesajul t\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 De unde \u0219tii?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 L-am v\u0103zut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218i ce spune?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nimic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am z\u00e2mbit amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Asta era tata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u00e2nd nu \u0219tia cum s\u0103 repare ceva, se purta de parc\u0103 problema ar fi disp\u0103rut dac\u0103 nu vorbea despre ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dup\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103, \u00eentr-o sear\u0103, telefonul a sunat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201eTata\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am uitat la ecran p\u00e2n\u0103 aproape s\u0103 se opreasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi am r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ce faci?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vocea lui era exact cum o \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nici cald\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nici rece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Bine. Tu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pe aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pauz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ai schimbat cauciucurile la ma\u0219in\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 bufne\u0219te pl\u00e2nsul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dup\u0103 toate lucrurile pe care ni le spuseser\u0103m, tata m\u0103 suna s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentrebe de cauciucuri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ce marc\u0103 ai pus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n I-am spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Sunt bune, a morm\u0103it. S\u0103 verifici presiunea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 O verific.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Alt\u0103 pauz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A\u0219teptam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Poate un \u201e\u00eemi pare r\u0103u\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Poate un \u201eam exagerat\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N-a venit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar nici \u00eentrebarea despre copii n-a venit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Radu ce face?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Munce\u0219te mult?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ca de obicei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i chiar \u00eenainte s\u0103 \u00eenchid\u0103, a spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 ave\u021bi grij\u0103 de voi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva secunde cu telefonul la ureche dup\u0103 ce convorbirea se terminase.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Radu m-a privit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ce-a zis?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am r\u00e2s printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 verific presiunea \u00een cauciucuri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Radu a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Declara\u021bie de dragoste marca Vasile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Peste dou\u0103 s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, mama ne-a chemat la mas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Veni\u021bi \u0219i voi duminic\u0103. Fac sarmale.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Prima mea reac\u021bie a fost s\u0103 inventez o scuz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi am \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Tata \u0219tie?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 El mi-a spus s\u0103 v\u0103 chem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Duminic\u0103 am plecat spre Buz\u0103u.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Cu c\u00e2t ne apropiam de casa p\u0103rin\u021bilor mei, cu at\u00e2t sim\u021beam nodul acela vechi \u00een stomac.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Radu mi-a prins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dac\u0103 \u00eencepe iar, plec\u0103m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 F\u0103r\u0103 scandal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 F\u0103r\u0103 scandal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata era \u00een curte c\u00e2nd am ajuns.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Avea m\u00e2inile la spate \u0219i se uita la ni\u0219te ro\u0219ii pe care le legase de araci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut, s-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i eu m-am oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pentru c\u00e2teva secunde, niciunul dintre noi n-a \u0219tiut ce s\u0103 fac\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi tata s-a uitat atent la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ai sl\u0103bit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Aproape am r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Bun\u0103 \u0219i \u021bie, tat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Hai \u00een cas\u0103. Se r\u0103cesc sarmalele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu \u0219i-a cerut iertare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar nici nu m-a \u00eentrebat c\u00e2nd \u00eei fac nepot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n La mas\u0103 am vorbit despre lucruri mici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Despre serviciul meu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Despre o problem\u0103 la ma\u0219ina lui Radu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Despre vecinul care \u00ee\u0219i ridicase un gard prea \u00eenalt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Despre ro\u0219ii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mama ne privea c\u00e2nd pe mine, c\u00e2nd pe tata, de parc\u0103 se temea c\u0103 o singur\u0103 propozi\u021bie gre\u0219it\u0103 ar putea arunca din nou totul \u00een aer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar propozi\u021bia aceea n-a venit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dup\u0103 mas\u0103, c\u00e2nd Radu o ajuta pe mama s\u0103 str\u00e2ng\u0103 farfuriile, am ie\u0219it \u00een curte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata era l\u00e2ng\u0103 poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am dus l\u00e2ng\u0103 el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Tat\u0103\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Mesajul pe care \u021bi l-am trimis\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n A oftat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 L-am citit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 N-am vrut s\u0103 te r\u0103nesc, am spus. Dar nici nu mai puteam continua a\u0219a.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata s-a uitat spre gr\u0103din\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Eu am crezut c\u0103 fac ce trebuie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru cine?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00centrebarea l-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 se uite la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pentru tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dar eu \u00ee\u021bi spuneam c\u0103 m\u0103 r\u0103ne\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N-a r\u0103spuns imediat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Pe vremea noastr\u0103 lucrurile erau altfel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Te c\u0103s\u0103toreai, f\u0103ceai copii\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 A\u0219a am crescut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Dar eu nu sunt obligat\u0103 s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc aceea\u0219i via\u021b\u0103 doar pentru c\u0103 tu ai tr\u0103it-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata \u0219i-a frecat palma de b\u0103rbie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu \u00een\u021beleg toate lucrurile astea, Ioana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Era probabil cea mai sincer\u0103 propozi\u021bie pe care mi-o spusese \u00een ultimele luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu trebuie s\u0103 le \u00een\u021belegi pe toate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci ce trebuie?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 accep\u021bi c\u0103 sunt alegerile mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A r\u0103mas t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu mi-a spus c\u0103 am dreptate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata nu era omul care s\u0103 se transforme \u00eentr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar nici nu s-a certat cu mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva clipe a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 E\u0219ti bine cu Radu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Te respect\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 E\u0219ti fericit\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata a dat \u00eencet din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n S-a oprit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci ce?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Atunci m\u0103car at\u00e2t am f\u0103cut bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-au usturat ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am \u00een\u021beles ce voia s\u0103 spun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M\u0103 crescuse suficient de \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nat\u0103 \u00eenc\u00e2t, \u00eentr-o zi, s\u0103 am curajul s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eempotrivesc chiar lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u00e2nd ne-am preg\u0103tit s\u0103 plec\u0103m, mama m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Radu a dus o saco\u0219\u0103 cu legume la ma\u0219in\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tata a r\u0103mas \u00een poart\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am deschis portiera.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Ioana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n M-am \u00eentors.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da?<\/p>\n\n\n\n S-a uitat spre mine, apoi spre Radu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 S\u0103 mai veni\u021bi pe la noi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Am a\u0219teptat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Voi doi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N-a fost o cerere de iertare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n N-a \u0219ters cuvintele pe care mi le spusese.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i nici nu \u00eensemna c\u0103 tata \u00een\u021belesese dintr-odat\u0103 toate alegerile mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar pentru prima dat\u0103 nu vorbea despre familia pe care credea c\u0103 ar trebui s-o am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vorbea despre familia pe care o aveam deja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Eu \u0219i Radu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Venim, tat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00cen lunile care au urmat, rela\u021bia noastr\u0103 nu a devenit perfect\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Uneori \u00eenc\u0103 sim\u021beam c\u0103 tata voia s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva \u0219i se oprea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Uneori mama \u00eemi m\u0103rturisea c\u0103 \u00eel mai auzea vorbind despre nepo\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar nu m-a mai \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu m-a mai amenin\u021bat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i nu mi-a mai spus c\u0103 via\u021ba mea trebuie s\u0103 arate \u00eentr-un anumit fel pentru ca eu s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n fiica lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Poate \u00eentr-o zi eu \u0219i Radu vom avea un copil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Poate nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu \u0219tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar dac\u0103 se va \u00eent\u00e2mpla vreodat\u0103, acel copil nu va veni pe lume pentru a umple casa tat\u0103lui meu, pentru a continua un nume sau pentru a opri \u00eentreb\u0103rile oamenilor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Va veni pentru c\u0103 noi l-am dorit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Iar dac\u0103 nu va veni niciodat\u0103, via\u021ba noastr\u0103 nu va fi mai pu\u021bin \u00eentreag\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mi-a luat 34 de ani s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg ceva ce ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u0219tiu mult mai devreme:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Po\u021bi s\u0103-\u021bi iube\u0219ti p\u0103rin\u021bii f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 le tr\u0103ie\u0219ti via\u021ba pe care au ales-o ei pentru tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i uneori cea mai grea limit\u0103 nu este cea pe care o pui unui str\u0103in.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Este cea pe care ai curajul s\u0103 i-o pui omului pe care \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eel nume\u0219ti \u201etat\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii\u00a0\u00a0Trei s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni. 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