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Partea a 2-a \u2013 Continuarea pove\u0219tii\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u0103mas \u00een pragul casei Ilenei f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 pot mi\u0219ca.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Ce vrei s\u0103 spui c\u0103 nu tu m-ai vrut departe?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Soacra mea s-a uitat lung la mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Exact ce ai auzit, Elena. Eu n-am \u00eencetat niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 vreau s\u0103 faci parte din familia mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Nicolae mi-a spus c\u0103 m\u0103 dispre\u021buie\u0219ti. C\u0103 ai spus c\u0103 nu sunt suficient de bun\u0103 pentru el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ileana a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Iar mie mi-a spus c\u0103 tu nu mai vrei s\u0103 m\u0103 vezi. C\u0103 te-ai s\u0103turat s\u0103 m\u0103 amestec \u00een c\u0103snicia voastr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am r\u0103mas cu privirea fixat\u0103 asupra ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ani \u00eentregi o considerasem femeia care \u00eencercase s\u0103 ne distrug\u0103 familia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 De ce ar fi f\u0103cut Nicolae asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Intr\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00cen sufragerie, aproape nimic nu se schimbase. Aceea\u0219i mobil\u0103 veche, acelea\u0219i fotografii de familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ileana a deschis un sertar \u0219i a scos un teanc de plicuri legate cu o panglic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Le-am p\u0103strat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Mi-a \u00eentins primul plic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era adresat mie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Numele meu era scris de m\u00e2na Ilenei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar eu nu primisem niciodat\u0103 scrisoarea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am deschis-o.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eElena, nu \u00een\u021beleg de ce nu mai vrei s\u0103 vorbe\u0219ti cu mine. Dac\u0103 te-am r\u0103nit cu ceva, spune-mi. Nu vreau s\u0103-mi pierd fiul, dar nici pe tine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 N-am v\u0103zut asta niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cum?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 Nicolae venea aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi s-a t\u0103iat respira\u021bia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2t de des?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Aproape \u00een fiecare lun\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am ridicat brusc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu se poate. \u00cemi spunea c\u0103 merge la pescuit sau c\u0103 are treab\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana a z\u00e2mbit amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Uneori venea aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Atunci am \u00een\u021beles de ce GPS-ul numea locul acesta \u201eAcas\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar \u00eenc\u0103 nu \u00een\u021belegeam de ce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce ne-a \u021binut separate?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana s-a uitat spre un tablou de pe perete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
O pictur\u0103 cu o cas\u0103 de \u021bar\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am apropiat fa\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen col\u021b era o semn\u0103tur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De unde ai asta?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mi-ai d\u0103ruit-o acum mai bine de treizeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uitase complet de ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen tinere\u021be pictam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pictam ore \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd via\u021ba, casa \u0219i c\u0103snicia ocupaser\u0103 tot spa\u021biul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Tu aveai talent, Elena. \u0218i eu \u021bi-am spus asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am amintit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana fusese cea care m\u0103 \u00eencurajase s\u0103-mi expun tablourile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nicolae spusese c\u0103 mama lui doar \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 s\u0103-mi neglijez familia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 A existat \u0219i o galerie, continu\u0103 ea. Un om voia s\u0103-\u021bi expun\u0103 lucr\u0103rile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am r\u00e2s f\u0103r\u0103 urm\u0103 de veselie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu. Mi-au spus c\u0103 nu sunt suficient de bune.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana a \u00eencremenit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Cine \u021bi-a spus?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-a trebuit s\u0103 r\u0103spund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am\u00e2ndou\u0103 \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana s-a ridicat \u0219i a adus o cutie veche.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Din ea a scos o copie a unei scrisori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era adresat\u0103 unei galerii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am recunoscut imediat scrisul lui Nicolae.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eSo\u021bia mea v\u0103 mul\u021bume\u0219te pentru interes, dar nu dore\u0219te s\u0103 continue. Pictura este doar un hobby \u0219i familia ei este prioritatea.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am a\u0219ezat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eu nu scrisesem acele cuvinte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nici m\u0103car nu \u0219tiusem c\u0103 primisem oferta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De ce? am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 Nicolae voia s\u0103 fie centrul vie\u021bii tale.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana s-a a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd te-am \u00eencurajat s\u0103 pictezi, a \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 c\u0103 m\u0103 bag \u00een c\u0103snicia lui. C\u00e2nd am insistat, ne-a pus una \u00eempotriva celeilalte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-au revenit \u00een minte zeci de momente.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eNu conduce, Elena.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eLas\u0103 c\u0103 rezolv eu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eNu ai nevoie s\u0103 munce\u0219ti.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eDe ce s\u0103 pierzi timpul cu pictura?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lucruri pe care le confundasem ani \u00eentregi cu grija.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i totu\u0219i ai continuat s\u0103-l prime\u0219ti aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana a privit spre fotografia fiului ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Era copilul meu. Am sperat mereu c\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi \u00ee\u021bi va spune adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu mi l-a spus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 moartea lui Nicolae, am pl\u00e2ns altfel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu de dor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pl\u00e2ngeam pentru femeia care fusesem \u0219i pentru toate lucrurile la care renun\u021basem fiind convins\u0103 c\u0103 nu eram \u00een stare s\u0103 le fac.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana mi-a str\u00e2ns m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Ai venit singur\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 aici?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am dat din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u0218i ai luat permisul la 62 de ani?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Din prima.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 r\u00e2d\u0103 printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Atunci m\u0103car \u00eentr-o privin\u021b\u0103 ai aflat deja adev\u0103rul f\u0103r\u0103 ajutorul meu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Care?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 C\u0103 Nicolae s-a \u00een\u0219elat \u00een privin\u021ba ta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-am uitat spre tabloul de pe perete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mai ai culori?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ileana a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am p\u0103strat mai mult dec\u00e2t culori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o camer\u0103 din spate se aflau trei dintre tablourile mele vechi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Le p\u0103strase peste treizeci de ani.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nile urm\u0103toare am \u00eenceput s\u0103 merg la ea aproape \u00een fiecare duminic\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Singur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cu ma\u0219ina.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput drumul m\u0103 speria.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi a devenit drumul meu preferat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o zi, am oprit la un magazin \u0219i mi-am cump\u0103rat pensule, p\u00e2nze \u0219i culori.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am pictat din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Primul tablou a ie\u0219it prost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Al doilea, ceva mai bine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La al treilea am pierdut no\u021biunea timpului.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Exact ca \u00een tinere\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2teva luni mai t\u00e2rziu, fiica mea a venit \u00een vizit\u0103 \u0219i a r\u0103mas privind tablourile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103\u2026 tu le-ai f\u0103cut?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd pictezi?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd mi-am amintit c\u0103 pot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N-am aruncat lucrurile lui Nicolae \u0219i nici n-am \u00eencercat s\u0103 transform patruzeci de ani de c\u0103snicie \u00eentr-o singur\u0103 poveste ur\u00e2t\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cel iubisem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar am \u00eencetat s\u0103 mai confund iubirea cu adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori omul care spune c\u0103 te protejeaz\u0103 te poate convinge, pu\u021bin c\u00e2te pu\u021bin, c\u0103 lumea este prea grea pentru tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 nu po\u021bi conduce.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 nu po\u021bi picta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u0103 nu te po\u021bi descurca f\u0103r\u0103 el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, c\u00e2nd am ajuns la Ileana, GPS-ul m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 vreau s\u0103 continui spre destina\u021bia salvat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pe ecran scria din nou:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eAcas\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
De data aceasta am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u0219ters destina\u021bia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi am introdus adresa mea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i am salvat-o sub acela\u0219i nume.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eAcas\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u0103 la 62 de ani \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, c\u0103 nu Nicolae, nu un GPS \u0219i nici altcineva avea dreptul s\u0103 hot\u0103rasc\u0103 pentru mine unde este locul meu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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