Toma st\u0103tea \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie, cu palmele str\u00e2nse \u00een jurul unei ce\u0219ti de ceai care se r\u0103cise de mult. Nu b\u0103use din ea. Doar o \u021binea aproape, ca \u0219i cum acea c\u0103ldur\u0103 pierdut\u0103 ar fi putut s\u0103-i aminteasc\u0103 de ceva bun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Luiza era \u00een fa\u021ba lui, sprijinit\u0103 de pervaz. \u00cel privea \u00een t\u0103cere, urm\u0103rind cum umbra lui se mi\u0219ca u\u0219or pe perete, odat\u0103 cu lumina slab\u0103 a l\u0103mpii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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El nu spusese nimic de mult timp. Apoi, \u00eentr-un t\u00e2rziu, vocea i se auzi joas\u0103, aproape str\u0103in\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Nu-mi amintesc cum am ajuns aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Luiza \u00eel privi cu o bl\u00e2nde\u021be pe care nici ea nu \u0219tia c\u0103 o mai are.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Ai venit unde te a\u0219tepta cineva, r\u0103spunse ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Toma ridic\u0103 ochii. Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 multe s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, privirea lui o \u00eent\u00e2lni pe a ei. \u00cen ochii lui era ceva viu, dar dureros: o c\u0103ldur\u0103 r\u0103t\u0103cit\u0103, amestecat\u0103 cu ru\u0219ine, dor \u0219i team\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Se uit\u0103 apoi la m\u00e2inile sale, ca \u0219i cum acolo ar fi putut g\u0103si explica\u021bia tuturor pierderilor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am pierdut tot, Luiza. Serviciul, casa\u2026 pe ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vocea \u00eei era aspr\u0103, obosit\u0103, fr\u00e2nt\u0103 de nop\u021bi prea lungi \u0219i de amintiri prea grele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza se apropie \u00eencet \u0219i \u00eei atinse um\u0103rul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu e\u0219ti singur, Toma. S\u0103 nu mai spui asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
El z\u00e2mbi amar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Am dezam\u0103git-o. I-am promis c\u0103 o voi proteja, dar n-am fost \u00een stare nici m\u0103car s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc f\u0103r\u0103 b\u0103utur\u0103. Oamenii spun c\u0103 mi-am pierdut min\u021bile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza ar fi vrut s\u0103-i spun\u0103 ceva care s\u0103-l lini\u0219teasc\u0103. Ceva simplu, cald, potrivit. Dar cuvintele i se oprir\u0103 \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen loc s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103, \u00ee\u0219i l\u0103s\u0103 degetele peste m\u00e2na lui. Toma tres\u0103ri u\u0219or, \u00eens\u0103 nu se retrase. Privirile li se \u00eent\u00e2lnir\u0103 din nou, iar \u00eentre ei se a\u0219ez\u0103 ceva nev\u0103zut, fragil \u0219i periculos, de care am\u00e2ndoi se temeau.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Du-te \u0219i culc\u0103-te, \u0219opti ea. O s\u0103 r\u0103ce\u0219ti dac\u0103 mai stai a\u0219a.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toma \u00eencerc\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva, dar nu mai avu putere. Trupul i se l\u0103s\u0103 moale, \u00eenvins de oboseal\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza \u00eel conduse \u00een camer\u0103, \u00eei a\u0219ez\u0103 perna \u0219i \u00eel acoperi cu o p\u0103tur\u0103 veche. C\u00e2nd se preg\u0103tea s\u0103 plece, el murmur\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 deschid\u0103 ochii:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Nu pleca. Te rog.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ea r\u0103mase nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru o clip\u0103, tot ce crezuse c\u0103 \u0219tie despre singur\u0103tate, durere \u0219i inim\u0103 i se r\u0103sturn\u0103 \u00een\u0103untru. Apoi se apropie \u0219i se a\u0219ez\u0103 pe marginea canapelei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toma \u00eei prinse degetele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen acea atingere era totul: singur\u0103tate, vin\u0103, dor, recuno\u0219tin\u021b\u0103 \u0219i o rug\u0103minte pe care nu avea curajul s\u0103 o rosteasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Noaptea se \u00eentinse peste cas\u0103. Afar\u0103, ploaia lovea acoperi\u0219ul cu pic\u0103turi m\u0103runte \u0219i egale. Luiza st\u0103tea l\u00e2ng\u0103 el \u0219i privea cum umbrele tremurau pe chipul lui adormit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ciudat, dar pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mult timp se sim\u021bea \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103. Nu fericit\u0103 pe deplin, nu lini\u0219tit\u0103 cu adev\u0103rat, ci doar \u00eemp\u0103cat\u0103. Fragil, nesigur, dar real.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Diminea\u021ba, casa p\u0103rea alta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Soarele atingea geamul, iar mirosul de p\u00e2ine cald\u0103 se r\u0103sp\u00e2ndea \u00eencet prin camer\u0103. Toma se trezi confuz, cu ochii ro\u0219ii \u0219i chipul obosit. O v\u0103zu pe Luiza \u0219i p\u0103ru c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva, dar cuvintele nu venir\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, \u0219opti doar:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Mul\u021bumesc, Luiza. Pentru tot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ea d\u0103du din cap \u0219i z\u00e2mbi u\u0219or. Nu \u00eendr\u0103zni s\u0103 \u00eentrebe ce \u00eensemna acel \u201epentru tot\u201d. Dar \u00een inima ei se aprinse o sc\u00e2nteie mic\u0103, t\u0103cut\u0103, pe care nu avea s\u0103 o mai poat\u0103 stinge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen zilele urm\u0103toare, Toma r\u0103mase la ea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La \u00eenceput repar\u0103 gardul. Apoi aduse lemne uscate. Dup\u0103 aceea, \u00eencepu s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pu\u021bin c\u00e2te pu\u021bin, serile lor se schimbaser\u0103. El lua tot mai rar sticla. St\u0103tea l\u00e2ng\u0103 sob\u0103 \u0219i povestea despre copil\u0103rie, despre visele pe care le pierduse, despre frica de a adormi, fiindc\u0103 Emma \u00eei ap\u0103rea mereu \u00een somn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza \u00eel asculta f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l \u00eentrerup\u0103. Uneori d\u0103dea din cap. Alteori punea ceainicul pe foc \u0219i \u00eel l\u0103sa s\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 mai departe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apoi, la sf\u00e2r\u0219itul iernii, Toma spuse dintr-odat\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 O s\u0103 plec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza r\u0103mase cu m\u00e2na pe marginea mesei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Unde?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00cen ora\u0219. Am g\u0103sit de lucru. Nu vreau s\u0103 mai beau. Nu vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 pierd aici.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ea sim\u021bi cum ceva i se rupe \u00een piept, dar nu l\u0103s\u0103 durerea s\u0103 i se vad\u0103 pe chip. Z\u00e2mbi doar, at\u00e2t c\u00e2t putu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E decizia corect\u0103, Toma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
El t\u0103cu o vreme. Apoi spuse \u00eencet:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 F\u0103r\u0103 tine n-a\u0219 fi reu\u0219it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza se apropie \u0219i \u00eei str\u00e2nse palma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Doar tr\u0103ie\u0219te. Promite-mi asta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Toma o privi lung.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Promit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103, plec\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Casa deveni din nou t\u0103cut\u0103. Pa\u0219ii lui disp\u0103ruser\u0103. Mirosul hainelor ude, trosnetul lemnelor aduse de el, glasul lui stins de l\u00e2ng\u0103 sob\u0103 \u2014 toate se risipiser\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i totu\u0219i, \u00een Luiza nu mai era \u00eentunericul de dinainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
St\u0103tea la fereastr\u0103 \u0219i privea cum apa topit\u0103 se scurgea de pe acoperi\u0219. Prim\u0103vara se apropia \u00eencet, cu pa\u0219i umezi \u0219i lumino\u0219i. Atunci \u00een\u021belese ceva ce nu mai \u00een\u021belesese p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci: uneori, un om r\u0103t\u0103cit care \u00ee\u021bi intr\u0103 \u00een cas\u0103 nu vine doar ca s\u0103 fie salvat. Vine \u0219i ca s\u0103 trezeasc\u0103 \u00een tine partea care \u00eenc\u0103 mai poate iubi, ierta \u0219i spera.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Scrisoarea sosi dup\u0103 trei luni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era un plic simplu, f\u0103r\u0103 multe cuvinte. Luiza \u00eel deschise cu m\u00e2inile tremur\u00e2nde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eMuncesc. Nu mai beau. Mul\u021bumesc c\u0103 m-ai primit atunci.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu era semnat\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar nici nu era nevoie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Luiza trecu degetele peste literele tremurate \u0219i, pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een dou\u0103zeci de ani, pl\u00e2nse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu cu durere, nu cu disperare, ci lini\u0219tit, u\u0219urat\u0103, aproape fericit\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pentru c\u0103 uneori, chiar \u0219i dup\u0103 cele mai grele ierni, cineva se \u00eentoarce la via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar altcineva, a\u0219tept\u00e2ndu-l, \u00eenva\u021b\u0103 s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 din nou.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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