Primele dou\u0103 luni am tr\u0103it ca un oaspete \u00eentr-un film str\u0103in. Totul str\u0103lucea, mirosea a cafea, copiii erau aproape, dar eu m\u0103 sim\u021beam \u00een plus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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David pleca gr\u0103bit diminea\u021ba la serviciu, Liza se ocupa de copii, iar eu st\u0103team \u00een fa\u021ba ferestrei mari \u0219i priveam bicicletele trec\u00e2nd pe strad\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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M\u0103 b\u00e2ntuia t\u0103cerea: nimeni nu b\u0103tea la u\u0219\u0103, nimeni nu striga de pe balcon. \u00cen bloc mirosea doar a detergent. Mi-era dor chiar \u0219i de coada de la medic, de certurile vecinelor de sub geam, de vechiul meu ceainic care \u0219uiera noaptea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Mam\u0103, nu fi trist\u0103, \u00eemi spunea Liza. C\u00e2nd te vei sim\u021bi mai puternic\u0103, vom g\u0103si un grup pentru pensionari. To\u021bi sunt prieteno\u0219i acolo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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D\u0103deam doar din cap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Dar seara, c\u00e2nd ei culcau copiii \u0219i r\u0103m\u00e2nea doar tic\u0103itul ceasului, m\u0103 n\u0103p\u0103dea un val de dor at\u00e2t de puternic, \u00eenc\u00e2t m\u00e2inile \u00eemi tremurau. Deschideam telefonul, r\u0103sfoiam poze cu apartamentul meu \u2014 perdelele vechi, pisica, banca de l\u00e2ng\u0103 bloc \u2014 \u0219i nu-mi puteam opri lacrimile.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00centr-o zi a sunat cineva la u\u0219\u0103. Era vecina, doamna Julie. A adus o tart\u0103 \u0219i a spus, \u00eentr-o rom\u00e2n\u0103 st\u00e2ngace:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Noi locuim vizavi. M\u0103 bucur c\u0103 mai avem un vecin \u00een plus \u00een cl\u0103dire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Z\u00e2mbetul ei a fost cald, ca o gur\u0103 de aer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ne vedem, s\u0103 bem ceai, s\u0103 schimb\u0103m re\u021bete. Pentru prima dat\u0103, dup\u0103 multe s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, am r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dar luna trecut\u0103, David a venit cu o veste care a r\u0103sturnat totul. I se oferise o promovare, dar trebuia s\u0103 se mute la Amsterdam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E o \u0219ans\u0103, mam\u0103, spunea el. Va fi mai bine. Cas\u0103 nou\u0103, mai multe posibilit\u0103\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Iar\u0103\u0219i valize, iar\u0103\u0219i un ora\u0219 str\u0103in. Lumea mea abia prinsese r\u0103d\u0103cini, iar acum trebuia din nou smuls\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 David, c\u00e2t o s\u0103 mai tot pleci? am \u0219optit. Nici nu apuci s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti undeva, c\u0103 deja te gr\u0103be\u0219ti spre alt loc. Iar eu\u2026 a\u0219 vrea doar s\u0103 apuc s\u0103 m\u0103 stabilesc undeva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S-a oprit, a t\u0103cut mult, apoi m-a str\u00e2ns la piept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Iart\u0103-m\u0103. Nu m-am g\u00e2ndit c\u00e2t de greu \u00ee\u021bi este. Dar, dac\u0103 vrei, r\u0103m\u00e2i aici. G\u0103sesc pe cineva s\u0103 te ajute, organiz\u0103m totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Acea discu\u021bie m-a urm\u0103rit s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cei priveam pe nepo\u021bi cresc\u00e2nd, pe Liza preg\u0103tind cafeaua \u0219i ridic\u00e2ndu-\u0219i ochii spre mine \u2014 nu cu re\u021binere, ci cu c\u0103ldur\u0103. M\u0103 plimbam prin parc, \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem s\u0103 cump\u0103r singur\u0103 alimentele \u0219i \u00eencepeam s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg cuvintele de pe etichete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, c\u00e2nd cactusul primit \u00een dar a \u00eenflorit pe pervaz, am sim\u021bit dintr-odat\u0103: eram acas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
L-am sunat pe David la serviciu \u0219i i-am spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 Pleac\u0103, dragul meu. Eu r\u0103m\u00e2n. Nu m\u0103 mai sperie singur\u0103tatea. Aici e via\u021ba mea, aerul meu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A t\u0103cut o clip\u0103, apoi a spus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti puternic\u0103, mam\u0103. Sunt m\u00e2ndru de tine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd u\u0219ile se vor \u00eenchide \u00een urma lor \u0219i se va a\u0219terne lini\u0219tea, \u0219tiu c\u0103 \u00een aceast\u0103 lini\u0219te va fi loc \u0219i pentru mine. Poate nu acolo unde m-am n\u0103scut, dar sigur acolo unde, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Voi ie\u0219i pe balcon, voi privi cum se las\u0103 seara peste ora\u0219 \u0219i voi \u0219opti \u00eencet:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eR\u0103m\u00e2n.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu-mi mai este fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i simt c\u0103 inima bate egal, \u00eencrez\u0103tor \u2014 a\u0219a cum bate doar atunci c\u00e2nd \u00ee\u021bi accep\u021bi noua via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Aceast\u0103 lucrare este inspirat\u0103 din evenimente \u0219i persoane reale, \u00eens\u0103 a fost fic\u021bionalizat\u0103 \u00een scopuri creative. Numele, personajele \u0219i detaliile au fost schimbate pentru a proteja intimitatea \u0219i pentru a \u00eembun\u0103t\u0103\u021bi nara\u021biunea. Orice asem\u0103nare cu persoane reale, \u00een via\u021b\u0103 sau decedate, sau cu evenimente reale este pur \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare \u0219i nu este inten\u021bionat\u0103 de c\u0103tre autor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Autorul \u0219i editorul nu \u00ee\u0219i asum\u0103 responsabilitatea pentru exactitatea evenimentelor sau pentru modul \u00een care sunt portretizate personajele \u0219i nu sunt r\u0103spunz\u0103tori pentru eventuale interpret\u0103ri gre\u0219ite. Aceast\u0103 poveste este oferit\u0103 \u201eca atare\u201d, iar orice opinii exprimate apar\u021bin personajelor \u0219i nu reflect\u0103 punctele de vedere ale autorului sau ale editorului.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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