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St\u0103tea \u00een prag cu buzele tremur\u00e2nd u\u0219or \u0219i mi-a spus, aproape \u00een \u0219oapt\u0103, c\u0103 sarea era singurul pretext pe care \u00eel g\u0103sise ca s\u0103 bat\u0103 la u\u0219a mea f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-i fie ru\u0219ine de ceea ce \u00ee\u0219i dorea, de fapt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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O clip\u0103 n-am priceput. Furia care \u00eemi urcase \u00een piept s-a topit \u00eencet \u00een nedumerire, apoi \u00eentr-o vin\u0103 t\u0103cut\u0103 care mi s-a strecurat \u00een g\u00e2nduri ca un fir rece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Carmela mi-a explicat c\u0103, de c\u00e2nd \u00eei murise so\u021bul cu doi ani \u00een urm\u0103, apartamentul ei devenise insuportabil de lini\u0219tit. Uneori treceau zile \u00eentregi f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 aud\u0103 alt\u0103 voce omeneasc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Copiii ei locuiau \u00een ora\u0219e \u00eendep\u0103rtate, prin\u0219i \u00eentre serviciu, familie \u0219i griji. O sunau din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd, dar veneau rar s\u0103 o vad\u0103 pe mama care le \u021binuse c\u00e2ndva m\u00e2inile mici \u00een ale ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u201eNu am nevoie cu adev\u0103rat de sare\u201d, a recunoscut, fr\u0103m\u00e2nt\u00e2nd marginea \u0219alului, de parc\u0103 se temea c\u0103 o voi \u00eentrerupe \u00eenchiz\u00e2nd u\u0219a. \u201eAveam nevoie de un motiv s\u0103 v\u0103d un chip prietenos, s\u0103 aud un \u2018bun\u0103 ziua\u2019, s\u0103-mi amintesc c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 exist.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Cuvintele ei au umplut holul \u00eengust dintre noi cu o sinceritate at\u00e2t de simpl\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t m-a l\u0103sat f\u0103r\u0103 aer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00cen spatele meu, Sof\u00eda s-a apropiat \u0219i m-a cuprins de mijloc cu bra\u021bele ei mici, sim\u021bind schimbarea din aer, chiar dac\u0103 nu o \u00een\u021belegea pe deplin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Mi-au ars obrajii de ru\u0219ine. Mi-am amintit suspinele ner\u0103bd\u0103toare, z\u00e2mbetele for\u021bate, toate pl\u00e2ngerile din mintea mea despre pachetele de sare care \u201edisp\u0103reau\u201d mereu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Oboseala m\u0103 f\u0103cuse s\u0103 v\u0103d doar o nepl\u0103cere. Nu mi-a trecut prin cap c\u0103 cererea aceea repetat\u0103 era, pentru Carmela, o punte fragil\u0103 aruncat\u0103 peste singur\u0103tate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\n\u201e\u00cemi pare at\u00e2t de r\u0103u\u201d, am \u0219optit, iar vocea mi s-a fr\u00e2nt sub greutatea vorbelor pe care i le aruncasem c\u00e2ndva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u0218i-a cl\u0103tinat capul, bl\u00e2nd, ca \u0219i cum nu se a\u0219tepta la altceva de la o mam\u0103 t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103, cople\u0219it\u0103 de responsabilit\u0103\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u201eNu ar trebui s\u0103 v\u0103 deranjez\u201d, a spus, \u00eens\u0103 privirea ei tr\u0103da aceea\u0219i foame t\u0103cut\u0103 de apropiere pe care \u00eencerca s-o ascund\u0103 \u00een polite\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Atunci Sof\u00eda a f\u0103cut un pas \u00eenainte, cu buclele s\u0103lt\u00e2nd \u0219i cu o curiozitate curat\u0103 \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eBunico Carmela, vrei s\u0103 intri la noi s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00e2nci biscui\u021bi?\u201d a \u00eentrebat, ca \u0219i cum invita\u021bia aceea ar fi fost dintotdeauna partea fireasc\u0103 a pove\u0219tii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cuv\u00e2ntul \u201ebunico\u201d a surprins-o. I-am v\u0103zut ochii l\u0103rgindu-se, apoi \u00eenmuiindu-se \u00eentr-o c\u0103ldur\u0103 pe care nu i-o mai observasem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am ezitat doar o secund\u0103, apoi m-am dat la o parte. Mi-am dat seama c\u0103, poate, nu distan\u021ba ne trebuia, ci o mas\u0103 \u00eemp\u0103r\u021bit\u0103 \u0219i un strop de \u00een\u021belegere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen acea dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 am stat toate trei \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103ria mea mic\u0103, cu lumina t\u00e2rzie strecur\u00e2ndu-se prin perdelele uzate \u0219i vopsind totul \u00een auriu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Carmela a \u00eenceput \u00eencet, cu pove\u0219ti din copil\u0103ria ei, dintr-un sat unde vecinii \u00eemprumutau f\u0103in\u0103, zah\u0103r \u0219i sare f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 numere, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 calculeze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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- U\u0219i l\u0103sate descuiate \u0219i \u00eencredere simpl\u0103.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- R\u00e2sete care treceau dintr-o cas\u0103 \u00een alta.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- Oamenii nu se ru\u0219inau s\u0103 spun\u0103: \u201eMi-e dor de cineva.\u201d<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n
Sof\u00eda asculta cu ochii mari, prins\u0103 de istorii despre zile mai simple \u0219i obiceiuri pe care eu nici nu le cunoscusem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen mine s-a topit ceva, ca ghea\u021ba sub o c\u0103ldur\u0103 constant\u0103. Sub stres \u0219i orgoliu, \u00eemi \u00eengropasem emo\u021biile p\u00e2n\u0103 ajunsesem s\u0103 cred c\u0103 a cere sprijin e un semn de sl\u0103biciune.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I-am m\u0103rturisit c\u0103 a cre\u0219te un copil singur\u0103 \u00eenseamn\u0103, uneori, s\u0103 mergi pe o s\u00e2rm\u0103 sub\u021bire f\u0103r\u0103 plas\u0103: fric\u0103, oboseal\u0103, hot\u0103r\u00e2re, toate \u00een aceea\u0219i zi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Carmela a \u00eentins m\u00e2na peste mas\u0103 \u0219i a a\u0219ezat palma ei sub\u021bire peste a mea\u2014surprinz\u0103tor de sigur\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eE\u0219ti mai puternic\u0103 dec\u00e2t crezi\u201d, mi-a spus. \u201eDar \u0219i inimile puternice au nevoie, din c\u00e2nd \u00een c\u00e2nd, de cineva pe care s\u0103 se sprijine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\nAtunci am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 singur\u0103tatea locuise \u0219i la mine, ascuns\u0103 \u00eentre facturi, nop\u021bi albe \u0219i t\u0103ceri pe care le numeam \u201eindependen\u021b\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 ziua aceea, b\u0103t\u0103ile \u00een u\u0219\u0103 au continuat\u2014dar \u0219i-au schimbat sensul. Nu mai erau \u00eentreruperi enervante, ci amintiri bl\u00e2nde c\u0103 nu trebuie s\u0103 trecem prin toate de unii singuri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori Carmela cerea tot sare, de data asta cu un z\u00e2mbet juc\u0103u\u0219 care o f\u0103cea pe Sof\u00eda s\u0103 chicoteasc\u0103 \u00een timp ce alerga spre dulap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Alteori venea cu un mic dar: o sup\u0103 de cas\u0103, p\u00e2ine cald\u0103 sau o poveste \u00eempachetat\u0103 \u00een nostalgie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cencet, apartamentul meu s-a schimbat. Pe aceea\u0219i mas\u0103 veche au \u00eenceput s\u0103 stea \u0219i creioane colorate, \u0219i andrele. Dou\u0103 genera\u021bii, un singur loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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- Carmela o lua pe Sof\u00eda de la gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103 c\u00e2nd zilele mele de lucru se prelungeau.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- Sof\u00eda o numea \u201eBunico\u201d f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 clipeasc\u0103.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- Eu \u00eenv\u0103\u021bam s\u0103 cer ajutor f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 simt vinovat\u0103.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n
Sof\u00eda o adora. Prindea fiecare poveste, fiecare lec\u021bie rostit\u0103 calm despre r\u0103bdare, bun\u0103tate \u0219i c\u00e2t de mult conteaz\u0103 s\u0103 ascul\u021bi \u00eenainte s\u0103 judeci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen schimb, Carmela p\u0103rea s\u0103 se u\u0219ureze. R\u00e2dea mai des, mergea mai drept, iar \u00een priviri \u00eei ap\u0103ruse un fel de sc\u00e2nteie, ca \u0219i cum via\u021ba ei g\u0103sise din nou un rost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vecinii au \u00eenceput s\u0103 observe c\u0103 femeia cu \u0219alul gri nu mai mergea cu capul plecat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, uit\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 la Sof\u00eda cum adoarme cu o poveste \u00eemprumutat\u0103 de la Carmela, am sim\u021bit recuno\u0219tin\u021ba a\u0219ez\u00e2ndu-se ad\u00e2nc \u00een piept.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mi-am dat seama c\u00e2t de departe ajunseser\u0103m pornind de la un lucru m\u0103runt, care m\u0103 iritase: un pumn de sare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au existat \u0219i zile grele\u2014facturi care ap\u0103sau, oboseal\u0103 care se lipea de umeri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Doar c\u0103, de data asta, c\u00e2nd sim\u021beam c\u0103 m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc, nu mai r\u0103m\u00e2neam singur\u0103. B\u0103team eu la u\u0219a Carmeloi, cu o cafea \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103, nu cu repro\u0219uri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\n\u201eVia\u021ba nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 evi\u021bi greul\u201d, mi-a spus odat\u0103, amestec\u00e2nd zah\u0103rul \u00een can\u0103, \u201eci s\u0103 nu-l por\u021bi singur.\u201d<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen timp, u\u0219ile s-au deschis \u0219i pentru al\u021bii. Unii vecini au \u00eenceput s\u0103 treac\u0103 pe la noi: uneori pentru ingrediente, alteori doar pentru un salut \u0219i c\u00e2teva cuvinte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Parc\u0103 \u00eendr\u0103zneala Carmeloi de a cere ceva\u2014chiar \u0219i sub forma unui pretext\u2014le reamintise tuturor c\u0103 o comunitate \u00eencepe cu vulnerabilitatea de a spune: \u201eAm nevoie de tine.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 ploioas\u0103, aproape un an mai t\u00e2rziu, Carmela a intrat f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 bat\u0103, folosind cheia de rezerv\u0103 pe care i-o d\u0103dusem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-a g\u0103sit la mas\u0103, privind un nou teanc de facturi, cu lacrimile aproape ie\u0219ite la suprafa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 nimic, a pus \u00een fa\u021ba mea un borcan mic cu monede, care a clinchetit \u00eencet pe lemn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Am vrut s\u0103 refuz, dar ea m-a oprit din priviri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eNu e mil\u0103\u201d, a spus lini\u0219tit. \u201eE ceea ce face familia c\u00e2nd unul dintre ai ei se chinuie.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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- Am \u00een\u021beles atunci c\u0103 m\u00e2ndria poate izola la fel de tare ca t\u0103cerea.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- S\u0103 accep\u021bi ajutor nu te mic\u0219oreaz\u0103; \u00ee\u021bi d\u0103 aer.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
- Rela\u021biile adev\u0103rate se construiesc din gesturi repetate, nu din declara\u021bii mari.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n
Cu vremea, rolurile noastre s-au amestecat firesc: uneori o ajutam eu cu drumuri \u0219i program\u0103ri, alteori m\u0103 sprijinea ea cu \u00een\u021belepciunea \u0219i calmul ei.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sof\u00eda a crescut, cu aceea\u0219i energie, aceea\u0219i bucurie care lumina \u0219i cele mai \u00eentunecate col\u021buri ale zilelor noastre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centreba uneori de ce Bunica Carmela z\u00e2mbe\u0219te c\u00e2nd aude de sare. Iar noi schimbam o privire \u0219tiutoare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ePentru c\u0103 sarea face totul mai bun\u201d, r\u0103spundea Carmela, f\u0103c\u00e2ndu-mi cu ochiul, ca \u0219i cum am fi \u00eemp\u0103r\u021bit un secret delicios.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Au trecut ani. C\u00e2nd Sof\u00eda a fost suficient de mare s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103 mai multe despre via\u021b\u0103, i-am spus \u00eentreaga poveste a acelei dup\u0103-amieze de vineri, c\u00e2nd aproape am \u00eenchis u\u0219a definitiv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M-a ascultat \u00een t\u0103cere, apoi m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at str\u00e2ns \u0219i mi-a mul\u021bumit c\u0103 am ales s\u0103 deschid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, s\u0103n\u0103tatea Carmeloi a \u00eenceput s\u0103 sl\u0103beasc\u0103, a\u0219a cum timpul \u00ee\u0219i cere, inevitabil, partea.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen lunile acelea am stat l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul ei, citindu-i, \u021bin\u00e2nd-o de m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i \u00eentorc\u00e2ndu-i, cu r\u0103bdare, toate vizitele pe care mi le f\u0103cuse c\u00e2ndva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Chiar \u0219i c\u00e2nd vocea i s-a sub\u021biat, uneori \u0219optea, cu un strop de umor: \u201eAi pu\u021bin\u0103 sare?\u201d Iar noi z\u00e2mbeam printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\nPlecarea ei a fost lini\u0219tit\u0103, ca un somn lung, meritat.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n
Sof\u00eda a pl\u00e2ns f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se ascund\u0103. Nu pierdea doar o vecin\u0103, ci bunica aleas\u0103 care \u00eei modelase copil\u0103ria cu bl\u00e2nde\u021be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
La o comemorare simpl\u0103, le-am spus celor prezen\u021bi cum o cerere aparent banal\u0103 ne schimbase via\u021ba. Am vorbit despre singur\u0103tate, despre orgoliu, despre curajul de a bate la u\u0219\u0103 \u0219i despre gra\u021bia de a r\u0103spunde cu bun\u0103tate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dup\u0103 aceea, c\u00e2\u021biva vecini mi-au m\u0103rturisit c\u0103 \u0219i ei se sim\u021biser\u0103 izola\u021bi uneori, dar nu g\u0103siser\u0103 cum s\u0103 se apropie de cineva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0218i azi, c\u00e2nd cump\u0103r un pachet nou de sare, m\u0103 opresc o secund\u0103 \u00eenainte s\u0103-l pun \u00een dulap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cemi amintesc b\u0103taia \u00een u\u0219\u0103 care m\u0103 enerva, lacrimile care au urmat \u0219i prietenia care a \u00eenflorit dintr-o ne\u00een\u021belegere.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sof\u00eda spune acum c\u0103 vrea s\u0103 fie omul care observ\u0103 c\u00e2nd cineva cere mai mult dec\u00e2t roste\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cei r\u0103spund c\u0103 empatia e ca sarea: nu o vezi c\u00e2nd e \u00een echilibru, dar \u00ee\u021bi dai seama imediat c\u00e2nd lipse\u0219te.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Apartamentul nostru e tot mic, cu haosul obi\u0219nuit de \u0219coal\u0103, munc\u0103 \u0219i griji.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Doar c\u0103 nu mai e un loc de supravie\u021buire solitar\u0103. E un acas\u0103 \u201easezonat\u201d cu amintiri \u0219i cu gesturi simple, f\u0103cute la timp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Uneori, \u00een dup\u0103-amiezi foarte t\u0103cute, aproape c\u0103 a\u0219tept s\u0103 aud cioc\u0103nitul ei bl\u00e2nd pe hol.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
C\u00e2nd lini\u0219tea r\u0103m\u00e2ne, \u00eenchid ochii \u0219i \u0219optesc un mul\u021bumesc pentru femeia care m-a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 nu-mi \u021bin u\u0219a \u00eenchis\u0103 din m\u00e2ndrie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cen final, n-a fost niciodat\u0103 despre sare. A fost despre curajul fragil \u0219i frumos de a recunoa\u0219te c\u0103 avem nevoie unii de al\u021bii.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Aceast\u0103 lucrare este inspirat\u0103 din evenimente \u0219i persoane reale, \u00eens\u0103 a fost fic\u021bionalizat\u0103 \u00een scopuri creative. Numele, personajele \u0219i detaliile au fost schimbate pentru a proteja intimitatea \u0219i pentru a \u00eembun\u0103t\u0103\u021bi nara\u021biunea. Orice asem\u0103nare cu persoane reale, \u00een via\u021b\u0103 sau decedate, sau cu evenimente reale este pur \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103toare \u0219i nu este inten\u021bionat\u0103 de c\u0103tre autor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Autorul \u0219i editorul nu \u00ee\u0219i asum\u0103 responsabilitatea pentru exactitatea evenimentelor sau pentru modul \u00een care sunt portretizate personajele \u0219i nu sunt r\u0103spunz\u0103tori pentru eventuale interpret\u0103ri gre\u0219ite. Aceast\u0103 poveste este oferit\u0103 \u201eca atare\u201d, iar orice opinii exprimate apar\u021bin personajelor \u0219i nu reflect\u0103 punctele de vedere ale autorului sau ale editorului.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
St\u0103tea \u00een prag cu buzele tremur\u00e2nd u\u0219or \u0219i mi-a spus, aproape \u00een \u0219oapt\u0103, c\u0103 sarea era singurul pretext pe care \u00eel g\u0103sise ca s\u0103 bat\u0103<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":45981,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46533"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46533"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46533\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46534,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46533\/revisions\/46534"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/45981"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46533"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46533"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/calatorinromania.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46533"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}