\u2026\u0219i atunci a ap\u0103rut el.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nu un prin\u021b pe cal alb. Nu un b\u0103rbat t\u00e2n\u0103r sau misterios. Ci cineva\u2026 normal. Prea normal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un coleg de la clubul de carte, cu care schimbam polite\u021buri de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd ne \u00eent\u00e2lneam. \u00cel cheam\u0103 Adrian. \u00centotdeauna mi se p\u0103rea c\u0103 r\u00e2de doar din col\u021bul gurii, ca \u0219i cum ar ascunde o lume \u00eentreag\u0103 \u00een spatele privirii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, dup\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnire, m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 merg pe jos spre cas\u0103. Am zis da, de\u0219i aveam ma\u0219ina parcat\u0103 la 100 de metri. Nu \u0219tiu de ce. Poate pentru c\u0103, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 ani \u00eentregi, cineva m\u0103 \u00eentrebase ceva<\/em> \u0219i a\u0219tepta r\u0103spunsul cu adev\u0103rat<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ne-am plimbat printre case, pe o strad\u0103 cu felinare vechi, cu trotuare cr\u0103pate. \u0218i am vorbit. Despre c\u0103r\u021bi. Despre via\u021b\u0103. Despre lucruri mici \u2014 dar care, \u00een seara aia, p\u0103reau uria\u0219e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A doua oar\u0103, m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 beau o cafea. Am zis da. A treia oar\u0103, dac\u0103 am timp s\u0103-l ajut s\u0103 aleag\u0103 un cadou pentru fiica lui. \u0218i din nou am zis da.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Apoi\u2026 \u00eentr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 obi\u0219nuit\u0103 de miercuri, \u00een timp ce r\u00e2deam pe banca din parc, m-am oprit brusc. Am sim\u021bit cum m\u0103 prive\u0219te. Cum \u00ee\u0219i apropie m\u00e2na de a mea, dar nu m\u0103 atinge. A\u0219tepta. A\u0219tepta r\u0103spunsul pe care so\u021bul meu nu mi-l mai ceruse de ani de zile:<\/p>\n\n\n\n „Mai e\u0219ti vie?”<\/em><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n \u0218i atunci am \u0219tiut: dac\u0103 fac un pas \u00een fa\u021b\u0103, nimic nu va mai fi ca \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n L-am f\u0103cut.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A fost s\u0103rutul cel mai lini\u0219tit \u0219i cel mai zgomotos din via\u021ba mea. Nimic spectaculos. F\u0103r\u0103 furtuni. Doar dou\u0103 suflete care \u00ee\u0219i aminteau ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 fie atinse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218tiu ce vor spune unii: \u201ePuteai s\u0103 vorbe\u0219ti!\u201d Am vorbit. \u201ePuteai s\u0103 \u00eencerci!\u201d Am \u00eencercat. \u201ePuteai s\u0103 pleci!\u201d De unde? Din propria via\u021b\u0103, \u00een care m-am \u00eenchis singur\u0103, dar cu cheia l\u0103sat\u0103 la altcineva?<\/p>\n\n\n\n A fost tr\u0103dare? Poate. Dar \u0219tii ce cred?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Uneori, cea mai mare infidelitate nu e fa\u021b\u0103 de partener, ci fa\u021b\u0103 de tine \u00eens\u0103\u021bi. Atunci c\u00e2nd accep\u021bi s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai sim\u021bi nimic.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n Nu \u0219tiu \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eencotro duce povestea mea. Nu plec cu valiza dup\u0103 el. Nu am de g\u00e2nd s\u0103 distrug familii sau s\u0103 joc telenovele. Nu vreau flori, inele, promisiuni.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vreau doar s\u0103 nu mai fiu mobil\u0103 \u00een propria cas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0218i s\u0103 \u0219tiu c\u0103, dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi cineva m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 din nou: \u201eSare?\u201d, voi fi destul de vie \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 r\u0103spund:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Da, dar vreau \u0219i piper. \u0218i l\u0103m\u00e2ie. \u0218i foc.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n L-am privit mult timp \u00eenainte s\u0103-i spun. Dormea lini\u0219tit, cu respira\u021bia aceea grea \u0219i regulat\u0103, pe care o \u0219tiam pe de rost. \u0218tiam c\u0103, \u00een c\u00e2teva ore, se va trezi, \u00ee\u0219i va freca ochii, \u00ee\u0219i va pune halatul \u0219i va cobor\u00ee \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie. \u00ce\u0219i va face cafeaua. Va deschide ziarul. \u0218i-mi va spune, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 priveasc\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Sare?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu. Nu mai puteam. Am \u0219tiut c\u0103, dac\u0103 nu vorbesc ACUM, voi disp\u0103rea cu totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n L-am trezit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Trebuie s\u0103 vorbim.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n A deschis ochii greu, enervat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu putem m\u00e2ine?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu. M\u00e2ine nu mai exist\u0103 pentru mine dac\u0103 nu vorbim azi.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n L-am v\u0103zut cum se ridic\u0103, confuz. Cum \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleag\u0103. \u0218i am \u00eenceput, f\u0103r\u0103 introduceri:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Te-am \u00een\u0219elat.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n A r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat. Ca o statuie. Nu furios. Nu r\u0103nit. Doar\u2026 blocat. Ca un om c\u0103ruia i s-a oprit filmul \u0219i nu g\u0103se\u0219te telecomanda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Cu cine?<\/em> a \u00eentrebat sec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu conteaz\u0103 cine. Conteaz\u0103 de ce. Pentru c\u0103 \u00eenainte s\u0103 te tr\u0103dez pe tine\u2026 m-ai tr\u0103dat tu pe mine. Ani de zile. C\u00e2nd ai ales contracte \u00een loc de conversa\u021bii. C\u00e2nd ai ales \u201edup\u0103 s\u0103rb\u0103tori\u2026 dup\u0103 proiect\u2026 dup\u0103\u2026 dup\u0103\u2026\u201d p\u00e2n\u0103 nu a mai r\u0103mas nimic acum. C\u00e2nd m-ai privit ca pe mobilierul de l\u00e2ng\u0103 frigider.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n A vrut s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva, dar l-am oprit:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 N-ai observat c\u00e2nd am t\u0103cut prea mult? C\u00e2nd nu m-ai atins? C\u00e2nd nu m-ai mai \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 \u00eemi e bine?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Am muncit pentru noi,<\/em> a replicat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu pentru noi. Pentru ordine. Pentru confort. Pentru lini\u0219te. Dar lini\u0219tea aia m-a ucis. \u0218i \u00eentr-o zi\u2026 altcineva m-a privit. \u0218i m-am trezit. Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 mai am puls.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Abia atunci s-a enervat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 A\u0219a justifici adulterul? Cu poezie?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Am z\u00e2mbit. Pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een ani, nu mi-a mai fost fric\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Nu-l justific. \u00cel asum. \u0218i nu vin s\u0103-mi ceri iertare. Vin s\u0103-\u021bi spun c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc. Fie cu tine. Fie f\u0103r\u0103 tine. Dar nu a\u0219a.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Am t\u0103cut am\u00e2ndoi. A fost primul nostru adev\u0103rat<\/em> moment de cuplu dup\u0103 mult timp \u2014 pentru c\u0103, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, ne priveam, f\u0103r\u0103 perdele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n El s-a ridicat, s-a dus la buc\u0103t\u0103rie. Am crezut c\u0103 pleac\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A f\u0103cut dou\u0103 cafele. A venit cu ele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Le-a pus pe mas\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S-a uitat la mine. \u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 ani \u00eentregi, m-a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Cum vrei s\u0103 bem cafeaua?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Am sim\u021bit lacrimile urc\u00e2ndu-mi \u00een ochi. M-am a\u0219ezat. \u0218i am r\u0103spuns:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u2014 Cu sare. \u0218i piper. \u0218i l\u0103m\u00e2ie. \u0218i foc. Dac\u0103 mai e loc pentru toate.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu \u0219tiu unde vom ajunge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Poate ne vom repara. Poate ne vom desp\u0103r\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Dar un lucru \u0219tiu sigur:<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu m\u0103 mai \u00eentorc niciodat\u0103 la t\u0103cere.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u2026\u0219i atunci a ap\u0103rut el. Nu un prin\u021b pe cal alb. Nu un b\u0103rbat t\u00e2n\u0103r sau misterios. Ci cineva\u2026 normal. Prea normal. 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