C\u00e2nd l-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit pe Aurel, aveam deja 56 de ani. El era v\u0103duv, iar eu \u2014 o femeie divor\u021bat\u0103, cu sufletul r\u0103nit \u0219i visurile stinse. Via\u021ba ne zguduise pe am\u00e2ndoi destul de bine \u0219i c\u0103utam doar c\u0103ldur\u0103. Acel tip de c\u0103ldur\u0103 \u2014 lini\u0219tit\u0103, de \u00eencredere, f\u0103r\u0103 jur\u0103minte \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 preten\u021bii.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am tr\u0103it \u00eempreun\u0103 unsprezece ani. Unsprezece ani calmi, plini de bucurii simple: mic dejunuri t\u00e2rzii, drumuri de diminea\u021b\u0103 la pia\u021b\u0103, ceai l\u00e2ng\u0103 \u0219emineu. Nu ne-am certat, nu ne-am repro\u0219at nimic \u2014 pur \u0219i simplu am fost al\u0103turi. Copiii s\u0103i adul\u021bi se comportau cu mine politicos, dar cu r\u0103ceal\u0103. Nu interveneam, nu insistam \u2014 ei erau rudele lui, nu ale mele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Totul s-a schimbat c\u00e2nd medicii i-au pus lui Aurel un diagnostic \u00eengrozitor: cancer. Boala nu i-a l\u0103sat nicio \u0219ans\u0103 \u2014 form\u0103 agresiv\u0103, curs nemilos. Am devenit ochii, m\u00e2inile \u0219i respira\u021bia lui. \u00cel ridicam c\u00e2nd nu mai putea merge, \u00eel hr\u0103neam, \u00eei \u00eengrijeam escarele, \u00eei m\u00e2ng\u00e2iam fruntea \u00een momentele de durere. \u00cei \u021bineam m\u00e2na c\u00e2nd se sufoca de dureri. Asistentele \u00eemi spuneau: \u201eE\u0219ti extraordinar\u0103. Nu mul\u021bi din familie ar rezista a\u0219a\u201d. Dar nu o consideram un eroism. Doar \u00eel iubeam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00centr-una din ultimele nop\u021bi, mi-a str\u00e2ns m\u00e2na \u0219i a \u0219optit:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2014 \u00ce\u021bi mul\u021bumesc\u2026 iubirea mea\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Iar diminea\u021ba nu mai era.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u00cenmorm\u00e2ntarea a fost rezervat\u0103. Totul a fost organizat de copiii s\u0103i. Mi s-a permis doar s\u0103 fiu prezent\u0103. Nimeni nu mi-a cerut p\u0103rerea, nu mi-a mul\u021bumit, nu mi-a oferit ajutor. Nici nu a\u0219teptam. De\u0219i casa \u00een care am locuit \u00eempreun\u0103 era a noastr\u0103, Aurel nu \u0219i-a rescris partea pe numele meu. Dar mereu m\u0103 asigura: \u201eAm avut grij\u0103 de tot, ei \u0219tiu c\u0103 vei r\u0103m\u00e2ne aici\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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La o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 dup\u0103 \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntare, m-a sunat notarul. Tot bunul, absolut tot \u2014 a trecut la copii. Numele meu nu figura nic\u0103ieri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u2014 Dar am tr\u0103it \u00eempreun\u0103 unsprezece ani\u2026 \u2014 am \u0219optit la telefon. \u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg, \u2014 a spus el rece. \u2014 Dar \u00een acte nu ave\u021bi nicio relevan\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u0218i doar dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva zile, au ap\u0103rut la prag. Fiica cea mare m-a privit cu o fa\u021b\u0103 de piatr\u0103 \u0219i a spus cu o voce rece: \u2014 Tata a murit. Nu-i mai trebuie\u0219ti. Ai o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 s\u0103 te mu\u021bi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am r\u0103mas f\u0103r\u0103 cuvinte. Tot ce respiram \u00een ace\u0219ti ani era \u00een acea cas\u0103. C\u0103r\u021bile pe care i le citeam cu voce tare. Florile pe care le plantam \u00een gr\u0103din\u0103. Cana lui veche, din care bea numai c\u00e2nd \u00eei turnam eu ceai. Cana mea preferat\u0103 cu o cr\u0103p\u0103tur\u0103, pe care el a lipit-o personal. Tot ce era via\u021ba mea a r\u0103mas \u00een spatele u\u0219ii pe care mi s-a spus s\u0103 o \u00eenchid definitiv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Am \u00eenchiriat o camer\u0103 mic\u0103 \u00eentr-o locuin\u021b\u0103 comun\u0103. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 fac cur\u0103\u021benie \u00een apartamente \u2014 nu pentru bani, ci s\u0103 nu \u00eemi pierd min\u021bile. S\u0103 fiu necesar\u0103 undeva. \u0218ti\u021bi ce era cel mai \u00eenfrico\u0219\u0103tor? Nu singur\u0103tatea. Mai \u00eenfrico\u0219\u0103toare era senza\u021bia c\u0103 ai fost \u0219ters\u0103. Ca \u0219i cum nu ai fi existat niciodat\u0103. C\u0103 e\u0219ti doar o umbr\u0103 \u00eentr-o cas\u0103 str\u0103in\u0103. \u00centr-o cas\u0103 \u00een care c\u00e2ndva ai fost lumin\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Dar nu sunt o umbr\u0103. Am fost. Am iubit. I-am \u021binut m\u00e2na \u00een cele mai grele momente. Am fost al\u0103turi c\u00e2nd a plecat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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\u0218i totu\u0219i \u2014 lumea func\u021bioneaz\u0103 pe baza actelor. Pe nume de familie, pe leg\u0103turi de s\u00e2nge, pe testamente. \u00cens\u0103 exist\u0103 \u0219i altceva: c\u0103ldura. Grija. Devotamentul. A\u0219a ceva nu apare \u00een actele notariale. \u0218i dac\u0103 doar unul dintre ei, st\u00e2nd l\u00e2ng\u0103 sicriul lui, m-ar fi privit \u00een ochi \u0219i ar fi v\u0103zut \u00een mine nu \u201eo oarecare femeie\u201d, ci pe cea care a fost al\u0103turi de tat\u0103l lor, poate povestea ar fi fost alta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Fiecare, oricine are familie, cine pierde \u0219i cine r\u0103m\u00e2ne, s\u0103-\u0219i aduc\u0103 aminte: nu conteaz\u0103 doar ce e\u0219ti \u00een acte. Conteaz\u0103 cine a stat l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul t\u0103u \u00een ceasul durerii. Cine n-a plecat. Cine a r\u0103mas c\u00e2nd totul se pr\u0103bu\u0219ea. Asta e adev\u0103rata familie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Nu port pic\u0103. Mi-e de ajuns amintirea. Aurel mi-a spus: \u201eMul\u021bumesc, iubirea mea\u201d. \u0218i \u00een aceste cuvinte e totul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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